Tina Mendonca
A Look Back
Sep 30, 2010
I've been having difficulties eating lately. Nothing seems to taste good at all. I have a bite or two aand then I'm over it.
There are days I wish I could have a sandwich like a regular person, but I know that could never happen. 
I know that if I could've done all of that on my own I wouldn't of had to have the surgery. I'm still getting over not having a Coke. 
Chicken made in many different ways is ok, but you do get sick of it. 
I still can't handle cheese. I would love to have some cheese and crackers, but it hasn't been pretty. The cool thing is,is that me and my two babies can eat off the same plate and when my husband and I go out we can eat for under $40 in a great place. 
I mainly have a soup or some shrimp with broccoli, oh! and my new found love of iced tea. I just need to take my time. It's hard sometimes to eat with the kids at meal times because I get stressed trying to feed them and then end up swallowing too quickly. And that really sucks because then I feel sick and lose my appetite. 
I have looked at food differently and see how bad I was when it came to eating. I had to admit that I was a stress eater. That was huge for me. I just treated my body so bad. Now the head hunger of fast food is almost gone. I had a thought today to have a plain burger, just the patty and then thought turned into disgust.
I could actually feel it getting stuck in my throat. But fruit is so soothing to me. Especially watermelon. My mood swings have calmed down and can't believe that I've ranted so much. It's a huge adjustment and in seeing my past pictures I was miserable. I was so depressed and felt like a big blob that didn't want to do a damn thing. I had given up on doing anything because I knew I wouldn't be able to finish it. I would get too tired and so sore. Now I feel energized and yes, I do feel sore, but it's a good feeling this time.
I've lost alot of weight and can appreciate more of what I am able to do now. I can chase my boys around the house, I can clean my home and BE HAPPY in this changing body. I can now wear large/xl when I used to wear a 3x. My pajama bottoms are HUGE and they just about fall off of me. 
It's a great feeling, but it's kinda sad to come to the realization that I mistreated my body. I was cleaning my house today and I was looking for some old clothes to wear so I wouldn't ruin the new ones. Well, I couldn't really find any.
But I made something work. So far I am happy with my decision and can't wait to go in for my 3 month post op appointment. It had to be rescheduled so It's actually a 3 1/2 month ccheck up, but I'm okay with it. i wanted to be under 200 lbs when I went in. So another 3 lbs and I can say I reached my goal!!! 
I can't wait!
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About Me
Merced, CA
Location
25.2
BMI
Surgery
06/23/2010
Surgery Date
Jun 28, 2010
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