Fell off the wagon - hard

Sep 06, 2014

Well, thursday morning I saw that my weight went down again and had a little happy dance. But then I started craving carbs. I gave in and had some fruit, which *should* have taken care of the craving, but actually made it worse.

Cue all-out candy and chips binge...with huge regrets after. Even now, I just came back from the restaurant with a friend and had some chips-n-dip and 1 1/2 mugs of beer. I guess that was stupid, but not unexpected. As I lose more weight, I have more nightmares about my parents abuse. Makes me want to hide somewhere. Oh well. At least I see mt psychiatrist the day before surgery - she can give me a referral to a good therapist. I'm gonna need it to get over this self-sabotage record of mine.

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