hit 150 pounds

And I'm right where I was supposed to be. So. whee. Still wish I'd fall magically into a pile o' cash- but that ain't happening. So- I live with this body the one I created by over indulging in stupid stuff and making silly choices. Sure I've lost the fat but apparently the skin is my new BFF. There's no making it go away. 

eh at least I'm healthy, I look good in clothing, and my husband can carry me across the house (heehee!).  I'm having serious hair ADD again. I went from a light blondish red to a unnatural darker red. I've got to give it a few days to see how much I really like it. It's a emi-perminent red so, even should I love or hate it it'll fade.  I'm trying to encourage my roots to grow. I seem to have forgotten my natural color- so it's semi-perminent colors henceforth. Or.. henceforth until my mind is changed again by a redhead with prettier hair then me.. then it's off to the boxes again to see if I look good that color.

Slider foods verses the good for me foods have me unhappy.  It's easy as pie to eat one tiny peice of chocolate. Even chips, in small portions go down easy.  The stuff that I'm SUPPOSED to be eating.  Steamed veggies: I can NOT eat more then a bite or BLEAGH they come right back up. gross.  Dense protien, it's okay if I eat nice and slow. HAmburger? Oh hells no. I have to have ground turky, and never in burger form. Taco form is fine, as long as it's moist.
Plus my scale is totally broken. It'll show me three sometimes four vastly diffrent weights depending on the day., This is driving me nuts because I now can't moniter my weight.  I'm scared I might be gaining, I'm having such difficult food issues. I need to put myself back on the basics. I've got a lot of it right. When I need lunch I go right to my cottage cheese with a sprinkle of dried soy "nuts", sunflower seeds, and parmisian cheese.  That's good stuff. BReakfast sucks. I'm sick of eggs, bacon smeells great but thus far has been a mouth feel dissapointment. I'm tempted to just gulp down my shakes, eat my protien bars for solids and give up all together on gosh darn stupid food. BUT, that's definatly not gonna happen because then my cravings for crap will take over and I'll be a blimp again.
My kids are both in school. I'm going to be starting a class soon. And I've finally got the time to go to the gym and write. Hopefully going to the gym will get me back opn track. 

MEH! And gurr. I'm not happy with my silly body right now, but I'll get over it. 

I'm two years out! Yesterday was my Surgiversiry. A crazy busy but "average" day for me.  My quota of vitamins is crazy, and clothing is weird, but still fun. Overall, I'm still absolutly estatic. I look at my old pictures of myself and I'm just dumbstruck. I know why I let myself get there. I remember this woman real well. I'm just not her anymore! Well- parts of me are, the best parts with a little of the garbage, because noone's perfect. Two years and I'm at goal. I'm cute enough to turn heads. I can ride a Roller Coaster and a horse. I can RUN! And not get winded (more then a normal person anyway). I can walk for hours and I'm fine. My sleep apnia is gone. No more pre-Diabeties. No more So stressed ancles that they're always twisting. Nope, I can wear SEXY shoes with only the regular shoe/foot issues. 
So! Happy two years to me! May the rest be as good if not better!