Marcia B.
Today is the 12th - tomorrow is the day!
Jul 11, 2011
I'm scared. I trust in my surgeon and I trust my support group telling me that this is a good idea and will help me so much. And I trust my therapist in her saying the same thing as everyone else, but I'm really scared. I messed up a couple times on my pre-op liquid diet and now it is like I feel that maybe I sabotaged myself out of fear. It's a reoccurring theme of my life. I did see my therapist and she helped me feel like I didn't sabotage myself and that I will be fine and not to let the fear take over in doing what I know is right. But can anyone ever really make someone feel better when the fear you have is the fear of the unknown.. the fear of what if? I have never had this surgery so you go by what the people who have gone before you their information. It all is so reassuring and I just need to pay attention to that and make my mind/feelings stop controlling my choices. I did find out something interesting through this process, the liquid diet brought out the controlling and addict side and my therapist says I am a food addict. I thought there was a possibility but as humans we can rationalize everything. But when I didn't have that food for comfort I can honestly say I about lost it. I am thankful to God that I have the therapist and husband I do and that I was given this websites address by my nutritionist because I don't think I would have made it this far without them all. Now I need to just make it through it and out the other side.
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CA
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24.2
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Surgery
07/13/2011
Surgery Date
Jun 04, 2011
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