My journey .. mine, mine, mine .. I own it.. live it.. love it

Nov 28, 2009

It is well worth it ... from start to death do us part .... because I choose not to stop my ride ... I am high on it and loving it ... the money I saved from binging on food and take outs and expensive restaurant treats, I use on me - this is my testimony of health and well being .. I dress it and I run it and I walk it and I invest me into it by choice.

I learned to walk and posture myself ins such a way that I sucked in 12 pounds of jelly belly prior to my panniculectomy and I tightened my arms to hide tons of loose flesh like this picture that threw me over the edge and had me running to get those wings clipped ... no wonder I felt a breeze I was flapping my wings instead of dancing that is.... at the past OH event in NY... one look I that picture that I never shared before did it ... batwings today you cease to exist!!!! 

and now I have swollen puffy and stiff arms 9 days post underarm wing clippings ... now they decide to hurt and I am on ABZ.... check out my before and after so far.... can't tell the difference with the swelling...

so feeling depressed and ugly I got up feeling a bit better and decided to post to my picture journal ... a picture a day keeps the pounds away ....
I took a comparison picture of a JLo dress I wore a year ago vs. yesterday ... although I had dropped all the way down to 111 and today I maintain steady between 123-126 my clothes fit the same hence all the junk is in my trunk and thunder thighs...

I tracked my journey in pictures---- I took my faces of yesterday and compared them to me today 9 days post modified brachioplasty.... and still swollen.. and 2 years 9 months post weight loss surgery ... THAT IS MY YESTERDAY AND MY NOW -- TODAY .... THE WAY I CHOOSE TO BE....

and LeaAnn your get-well picture was soooooooooooo special because look at my little Pancho a true blue Aztec chihuahua in the pic up there ... I loved that doggie... the mailman mazed him one day ,,, funny...
 
I am having fun with this journey ... I worked my arse off all my life and still do ... and I did this for ME the most rewarding thing I did for myself ... I risked my life for it and I am owning it ...let no man speak on the decisions I make pertaining my own personal body ...  through all the ups and downs I have no regrets and in my downtime I found encouragement and support on this OH board as well as with my network of family and friends ... I LOVE MY FAMILY, SOMETIMES TOO MUCH I THINK, AND THEY LOVE ME RIGHT BACK .... I MADE A COLLAGE OF MY FAMILY ... MY DAUGHTER , MY SON, MY HUSBAND AT OUR WEDDING AND OUR VOWS RENEWAL AND MY KIDS WITH THEIR FRIENDS....

Lunch money, after hours money, jive food money and tons and tons of gifts from family and friends and even stores (lol) I wore on my feet and on my arse every single day and I could still go another year and not repeat an outfit if I want to ... I  took pictures just for fun in some and passed them on to friends on here and elsewhere and others I wore and hung in the whole attic that became a huge walk in sit in closet for yours truly...
My before and afters were used in ads .... to encourage others... and I did not even have my panni done yet in that pic...

and I whipped out my sewing machine and sewed my butt off...

and I took mad pics of all my crazy outfits

I was asked to be a model in a fashion show by my favoritest store in the whole wide world and I did...but I discouraged someone here who told me I looked emaciated and my pictures were causing her to have regrets about her surgery ... granted I had bounced too low and was worried ... but I picked back up and I am fine...

but my picture journal encouraged my classmate for highschool who according to him inspired by me had his WLS 10 months after me ... look at us now...

I just love my journey and I love taking pictures ... I will be 2 and 50 and I want to make up for the time wasted behind closed doors stuffing my face ... and eating a whole box of frosted flakes and a whole gallon of milk while watching some sad arse late late show.... not any more ... I have portion control ...moderation ... and a tool that I just love...
When I was tempted to pick up the fork I picked up my paint and my canvas and I painted avies and pictures of my OH friends...

and even after I keep on painting for fun ... I see it and I paint it and I do not make exact replicas either ... I just let the brush flow and I only use the three primary colors that I mix to create all the others.. painting in acrylic on canvas.....
My beautiful sista LeaAnn

and Amy

and Pin

and others..my OH friend Caro and her DH RIP

I made dolls ... I am just finishing canvas and baskets to send off dolls I held onto because I decided to either fix something, redo something or add and avie on canvas ... sometimes I am slow to deliver but it is the perfectionist in me .. I do deliver and I have never ever once taken a penny for my talent ... it is a gift that I share according to how my heart feels about it ...
All in all I am who I am ... silly, loving, long winded but above all I am blessed ....
my friends and peer nurses showering me with goodies.... always...

and me being downright goofy and riding the journey of my life ... I am happy and I am free ... I can move and I am no longer sick .... this is my testimony ... this is my life and I am living it!!!!!
on the train to New York

to meet up with friends from R&R

I met with Charlie from OH in Mystic..

and we enjoyed Lobster at the Seaport...

and I met others at events and I have posted recently...
I tracked it all...





MY OLD PIGEON TOED ARSE RUNS EVERY 5K THERE IS AND I DID A 10 K TOO...

ME AND MY SON ...GETTING READY TO RUN

AND I SWIM LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW....

A GOOFY OLD SISTER ... ON A RIDE FOR LIFE AND LOVING IT!!!! AND I LOVE MY OH FAMILY... KEEP LIVING, KEEP MOVING AND DON'T EVER FORGET WHY YOU LAY ON THE TABLE .... WORK IT!!!! WHATEVER IT IS OR HOWEVER IT WORKS ..... LIFE IS ABOUT LIVING ...


OH ROCK!!!! I LOVE THE SUPPORT, ENCOURAGEMENT, RANTS AND RAVES AND BEST OF ALL I LOVE ALL THE EVENTS!!!!!

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