When My Faith Connects with My Place of Despair...

Feb 04, 2010

MY CIRCUMSTANCE CHANGES!!!!

3 YEARS AGO TODAY ... I MADE A CHOICE FOR LIFE ... I HAVE GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY .. I AM CELEBRATING MY THIRD YEAR SURGIVERSARY ... I AM HEALTHY... I AM HAPPY ... AND I HAVE KEPT IT ALL OFF ... NEVER ONCE DID I TAKE MY EYES OF THE MARK....

With life speeding by and having to wear so many hats and be in so many different places ... when I look in the mirror I connect NOT with the reflection in the mirror but with my inner woman the only one who is really really me ... the outward appearance does not really make the man .... it is the inner strength that is resilient that when you are weak it makes you strong,,, when I look in the mirror the only woman I see is the one in the last picture posted because she really will always be me ... for all the things that I have been through my inner woman braved the storm and WHEN MY FAITH CONNECTS WITH MY PLACE OF DESPAIR ... MY CIRCUMSTANCE ALWAYS CHANGES ...

3RD YEAR SURGIVERSARY ... I AM CELEBRATING ... AL I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS!!! DON'T YOU DARE WAKE ME UP WITH MARIACHI SERENADE COMING FROM A GRAMOPHONE UNDER MY WINDOW LOOKING TOTALLY DUFUS IN THAT BIG RED HAT ...LAST YEAR I WAS TRYING TO BE NICE BUT THE MUSIC YOU WERE PLAYING LAST YEAR WAS FOR A FUNERAL ... SO DON'T GO THERE - I HAVE A BUCKET OF WATER SITTING RIGHT HERE I WILL DOUSE YOU AND KENNY IF YOU PULL THAT SHIOT THIS YEAR!!!!!  OK? (lol)..

Me at the shop ... braiders are in back ..

Ma Tantie et moi...

Orgullosa de mis raices ... legado de la abuela Africana...
Fatou brought back the most beautiful fabrics...

Of all the faces in the mirror ... the only one I see ... is this woman the one who lives within me and who is really really me... she holds me in remembrance of where I want to be .. that fat lady me ... the one who dared to set herself free ...I needed freedom and mobility and now I am running out of time ... 3 years have gone by and each and every day I held myself in remembrance of what I wanted to do for me ... that fat lady that I still see in the mirror keeps me where I want to be .... HER RELEASE IS MY DELIVERANCE AND MY DELIVERANCE IS HER RELEASE!!!!!

HAPPY 3RD YEAR SURGIVERSARY TO ME!!!!!

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