Matt x.
Not ready to fail!!
Jun 24, 2007
Since before my surgery, I have been waiting for my annual fishing trip to Montana with all my buddies. Well, I leave this Friday and I am making some last minute changes.
You see, this is a typical boys weekend where we all try to out do everyone with the contributions to camp. One guy will bring imported cigars, another will show up with aged and very expensive whiskey, and someone else will bring porterhouses as thick as a brick.
I made a deal with myself that if I was good post surgery that I would treat myself with a few drinks and a couple of cigars on this trip. This weekend puts me right at 5 months post op and I have lost 117 pounds.
Part of me thinks that I deserve the award and the other half thinks my firs half is an idiot. I'm not worried about the steak. I can eat a little of that with some grilled veggies and still consider it healthy. What I am worried about is the cigars and whiskey.
I have never had a problem with addiction to alcohol or tobacco, but seeing as how I have recently kicked my biggest addiction (food) I am worried about cross addiction.
Well, I finally told my best friend that I was a little worried about the effect alcohol and tobacco would have on me and at first he just laughed and said I was crazy. However, after a couple of days he called me back and said he could never forgive himself if he caused me to fall off the wagon and start eating unhealthy or smoking and drinking.
I told him that I am responsible for my own actions, but I also told him how much his concern for my well being meant to me. So I have decided for my friend's conscience and my own health, I am not going to touch either of two new potential vices next week. And I am posting this here to keep me accountable.
Thank you all for reading this!
You see, this is a typical boys weekend where we all try to out do everyone with the contributions to camp. One guy will bring imported cigars, another will show up with aged and very expensive whiskey, and someone else will bring porterhouses as thick as a brick.
I made a deal with myself that if I was good post surgery that I would treat myself with a few drinks and a couple of cigars on this trip. This weekend puts me right at 5 months post op and I have lost 117 pounds.
Part of me thinks that I deserve the award and the other half thinks my firs half is an idiot. I'm not worried about the steak. I can eat a little of that with some grilled veggies and still consider it healthy. What I am worried about is the cigars and whiskey.
I have never had a problem with addiction to alcohol or tobacco, but seeing as how I have recently kicked my biggest addiction (food) I am worried about cross addiction.
Well, I finally told my best friend that I was a little worried about the effect alcohol and tobacco would have on me and at first he just laughed and said I was crazy. However, after a couple of days he called me back and said he could never forgive himself if he caused me to fall off the wagon and start eating unhealthy or smoking and drinking.
I told him that I am responsible for my own actions, but I also told him how much his concern for my well being meant to me. So I have decided for my friend's conscience and my own health, I am not going to touch either of two new potential vices next week. And I am posting this here to keep me accountable.
Thank you all for reading this!
