MeliT
Loving life!
Oct 03, 2014
It's October baby! whats better than the fall holidays coming up? being able to celebrate those holidays with a little boy who is old enough to enjoy it (that's A.) and being happy with yourself because you're finally at the weight you were when you were at your best! thats B. You guys!!!! my old clothes fit! from 3 yrs ago!!! when i was at my lowest after surgery. it was my 1 yr sleeviversary in 2011. and i had lost 90lbs. i was in the 170s and it looked like my body wasn't gonna go any lower than that. and i was perfectly fine with it. i was happy at that weight. i felt healthy and sexy. for the first time i felt sexy and beautiful!!!!! its been a really really long hard road this year. after i had my son in 2012 it took me an entire year to do something about the way i looked/felt. i felt so ugly in my own skin. worse than when i was originally fat. because this new body was foreign to me. the shape changed. finally in jan of this year i decided to take action!
and i've been working my ASS off ever since. i have had some serious bumps in the road but i NEVER gave up! never stopped trying. in august i went back to low carb and at the end of august i started a ketogenic diet. i'm getting more results in this passed month than i did in the previous 3 months. i'm starting to see that girl i was when i was at my best. god what an amazing feeling to see her again!!!!!!!!! it's been so long!!
i wish people would understand that having wls is a medical intervention. its something that people need when they're so far gone and can't do it alone and need help just to get back to a manageable size. wls saved my life!!!! but those 90lbs, that was it. you only get that window ONCE. and you have to make the most of it. your tool will be with you the rest of your life to help you maintain. to keep you from ever going back to that BAD place (unless you really abuse it) but its not gonna make you lose weight forever. i had to work just as hard as everyone else (even harder it seems) to get to this place this time around. diet and exercise. pure and simple. luckily thank god i came from a place that wasn't so far gone and i have been able to focus and take this journey.
anyway the truly truly exciting thing is i am almost at my pre pregnancy weight. almost at my lowest. and its only october. which means this is gonna be a really amazing holiday season for me. i will get down to a weight i've never been before. i've never been lower than 170lbs in my adult life! but i will be! i can't wait to see what it looks like on me! and most exciting of all, i'm planning to finally get my pannis removed early next year!! :) yay!! and my husband and i have decided we are in no rush to have another baby so we will wait another year. than means i have all of next year to continue to work on myself inside and out. and to really enjoy the body i've worked so hard for. i could not be happier right now.
