I feel like a failure...

Mar 10, 2011

I sit here typing with a heavy heart. I feel as though I'm failing with my surgery. I gained 2 pounds last week. I'm eating things I shouldn't be eating. I've been on a french fry kick. I wish I couldn't eat them. I wish they made me sick. They don't, I love them, I'm addicted. How can I break the addiction? I smoked for 34 years, and Chantix broke that addiction. Isn't there a french fry addiction medicine? I'm so weak. I saw my shrink today. She said my weight loss is normal, which means it could be awesome if I wouldn't eat things I shouldn't. I'm also not following my Nuts eating advice. I eat what I read other people eat. I've always been a follower. I haven't been released to eat beans, pastas, breads. I eat them. I tolerate them, so I figured it was all good. It's not... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? I'll go. I'm at work. I'm going to try and eat right. I had my coffee today, and a protein bar for breakfast. What would be a good lunch. Maybe a grilled chicken salad from Chick Fil A.

Cheers...

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