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Liquid Diet Starts Tomorrow!
Dec 22, 2010
Tomorrow, Christmas Eve will mark the beginning of a new way of life. Christmas Eve has been an emotional day for me for many years because that is the day my grandmother died. I always think of her and remember her cooking, her never ending love for me and her love and service to our Lord Jesus Christ. So on the the day she left us, I will leave this fat ridden body. I will move onward and upward. I think about how she battled with fat her entire life, and how excited she would be for me to have figured a way out of this. I can see her right now, smiling, clapping her hands and encouraging me. So with her imagined approval I will start this two week process.I have been thinking of all the things I should eat today, but nothing comes to mind that I am just going to die without. I guess that is a good thing. I did get up this morning and fix myself a huge glass of Mt.Dew. That is the one thing that I am going to miss. But I think I am going to pick up some steaks and potatoes for supper tonight. That is something my husband and I always enjoy together. I know in time I will be able to eat most foods again, but just not as much. I am looking forward to not eating so much, and feeling good about myself.
My husband called a few minutes ago and gave me a pep talk and told me that he knew I was feeling guilty about the stress I was going to be putting the family in over the next month or so. And he is right. I feel like my kids are going to suffer for a while, and my mom and mother-in-law are going to have to pick up my slack. But he reminded me that I deserve this. I deserve to do this for myself. I deserve to do something that will make the rest of my life better. And in turn make everyone else's life better. I will have more energy, feel better, look better, and will not be sick anymore. So, I will look at this time of self indulgence as self improvement, and keep my chin up. My family loves me and wants to help.
The next two weeks are going to be very trying. I have a problem will milk, lactose to be exact, and I think everything the Dr. has told me to try has milk in it. I have researched, and have some options in place, but I know two weeks is a long time with only a few options. But I will keep it in mind that it is only two weeks. Then after surgery, I will regroup.
So for today, I am drinking Mt. Dew, eating steak and baked potato, and looking forward to a brighter, thinner life.
WISH ME LUCK!
