mome23kjnc
some stats
Jun 05, 2010
went to see the Nutritionist and dr T Friday, and all was well. I am really wishing to exercise more, which surprises even me lol. Tama gave me a body composition test, and I was pleasantly surprised.Jan 12 2010 I weighed 288.5
June 4 2010 I weighed 270.5
June 6, after restrarting soft foods and upping my caories, I am 267.5 amazing. There is definitely something to be said for the whole "starvation" theory, if you dont get enough in, your body tries to hang on to the weight. Now Im eating a little more calorie-wise and losing fairly quickly. I am still getting a huge thrill out of seeing the scale going backwards. My BMI is nearly out of the severely obese category, my first goal is to get to less than 40 BMI. I am close. :) Goal number 2 is to get to 250 pounds, not sure if that will be before or after the BMI change, but whatever. Im learning to roll with this thing.
On my surgery date, I weighed 282. I have lost since then 7.4% of my body weight. Astounding, even though it isnt as fast as I would like, it is remarkably fast compared to without the surgery. My muscle mass has also increased by a pound, so the exercise/treadmill Ive been doing for months is paying off. I cannot wait to see me in a year.
I will try to keep it real here, too, so here are the negatives:
I went for round 2 of lunch with a friend yesterday, we had had a terrific haddock meal but werent sure WHERE we had had it as we go out to eat a lot. (And I was afraid I would lose that, so just being able to go at all and eat normal food was huge for me.) After the failed haddock adventure friday, we tried again saturday, and it found out that 99 restaurant really is where the best haddock is made. I ordered, it comes in a lemon butter sauce and topped with a ritz cracker very light stuffing. Mashed potatos and green beans. I asked for it unbreaded and no butter sauce, she told me the breading keeps it moist and to just take the topping off, I agreed. When it arrived, it was swimming in the butter sauce. Uhoh. I debated sending it back, but instead chose to drain off the butter into my friends popcorn bowl. Kind of leery of what butter would do, and also kind of intrigued with the consistency of the ritz, which were maybe 11/2 crackers pulverized and softened with butter into a light paste, I nevertheless scarped it off and took a bite of the haddock. MUCH better than the day before, not dry and nasty, tender and flaky. I had about 5 bites, including a taste of the topping and 2 itty bitty bites of the potato, and then I felt this painful uncomfortable fullness, and my mouth started wtering like I was going to throw up. My friend is very patient with me on this journey, and she said "hurting?" I nodded, then told her I was going to walk for a minute to try to get it to go away, then made a beeline for the restroom. The watering feeling felt distinctly like I was going to vomit, and I stood in the only available stall, the handicapped one, praying to God I wouldnt. I couldnt wait for the bathroom to empty out, I so didnt want to puke where people could hear me. I stood with my head against the wall for 3-4 minutes, then felt a burp, and all was well again. I am learning to recognize these feelings and hopefully will be able to learn to recognize them sooner and avoid painful experiences. I went back to the table and ate a few more tiny bites, then boxed up the leftovers (which I ate about half of for dinner last night with no troubles!) Leaving the restaurant, I felt very good, like I had taken a step towards my new life, stumbled a little, and got right back up. So thankful for a friend who doesnt freak out or get embarrassd or angry. she just continues on like there was never an issue, and lets me ramble on and on about my surgery, diets, calorie counts, whatever. sometimes I feel like I am monopolizing our conversations. But she reminds me this is new and tells me it is ok. It IS ok. I am on my way.
