I've hit a stall.  But it's ok.  I'm down to 265 and I am happy.  My energy is slowly coming back and I am stoked about busting through this stall.

It no longer hurts to drink and swallow.  So thank you to all of you who advised me it would be short lived.

Now the only thing I pray for is for the burping and hiccuping to stop.  I am going NUTS with all of this mess.  Uggghhh

Yeah, I am still on a quest to find the man of my dreams.  *sighs*  I'm so sick of being alone, but this too shall pass.  I just know my Prince is soon to come!

Let's see, what else.  Oh yeah!  Applied for mad jobs yesterday.  I want to be able to give my two weeks on my first day back.  So please keep me in your prayers.  

And thank you to all of the PA/Barix friends.  I know you all care about me and I thank you for always posting your concerns.  I am doing great and can't wait to get more weight off.

I had my first WOW moment yesterday.  I kept wondering why I was so low in my Jeep's seat and no matter how tall I tried to sit, no matter how much I put the back straight, I was still really low in the seat.

Then it hit me....I LOST A HUGE CHUNK OF FAT ON MY BUTT and I am now sitting lower in my seat....*woot woot* *does Snoopy Dance*

I can't believe it.  It literally took me 1/2 hour to figure out what the heck was wrong.  I thought it was just because I haven't driven in exactly 1 full month.

Weird!!!

Anyway.  I promise to try and keep this updated.  I just have no desire somedays to come on the net.  But I get so encouragement from this place so I lurk/post when I can.

I need real taste.
Gotta go out and get some soups (didn't know we could have regular soup, D'oh!!) so I can stop eating the same flipping thing everyday.

But other then that, I'm doing wonderful.  The only thing bothering me is the head hunger and those darn incisions...ugghhhh

I'm one week out and I feel good about my decision.  No regrets (except when I woke up in recovery screaming I did hehehe) and just want this full liquid phase over and done with.

Ok,
Last night, I didn't do a LAST MEAL.  I didn't want to blow all of the success and training I've done over the past 4 months.

But today...only clear liquids and I am freaking dying!

I WANT A CHEESE STEAK soooooo bad!  Uggghhhhh

Ok, I can do this.  Mind over matter, I made it this long without indulging in fatty foods, I can do it, I can do it ....I CAN DO IT!!!!

Without going into great detail, my meeting went WELL!
I still have issues with the place, but right now my focus is on my surgery next week.

Work?  Just something to be tolerated until then.  God is GOOD!  That's all I have to say.

Man, I have been trying not to post about my job just in case my boss does some sort of Google search and finds my profile here.  But right now I need to vent.

I have NEVER in my life gotten a bad review.  Every job I've ever worked at...my reviews were EXCELLENT.  I do my job, I come early, stay late and I bend over backwards to do more work then most people.

I work for a 'Christian' uninversity (rolls my eyes REALLY HARD) and I only went to work there because I am born again and wanted to connect with other believers.  Over the past 18 months, I have learned that The Word is REAL (not that I ever doubted the Word...don't get me wrong, that not everyone who names the name of Jesus is SAVED.

My new boss...I feared her wrath.  She throw scripture around like its nothing.  But you know what?  Thank God I am saved and I have the TRUE anointing of God on my life.  I see through her and see the enemy inside of her.  You know how I know?  Because she does everything she can not to be around me long.  I do everything I can to hold her gaze...she looks away.
I don't know why we allow ourselves to be intimidated by men/women.  

Thank you Lord for always getting my attention.  I know better now.  I fear him and only him.  So let's see..

Two ladies I work with are on thin ice with our new boss.  They come to me for a sounding board, encouragement and just a listening ear.  I give them the proper advice and usually try to keep my venting to a MINIMUM.  Well, last Friday all 3 of us got emails from our new boss's assistant asking us for speparate meetings.  I know when she wants to meet with you, it's not good news.  

So all last weekend I was scared (she had just fired someone and I wasn't happy this person was fired) about being fired because I was very vocal to a few other people that I didn't think it was fair this person was fired (the one time I open my mouth and I was fearful my feelings had gotten back to her).
So my meeting was set for Tuesday, but had to change it because my cousin died from a long, hard and terrible battle with cancer.  So I was out Tuesday.

The other two had their meetings while I was out I called to find out what the meetings were about for them.  They both got put on Performance Improvement Plans and have 90 days to improve their behavior.  I starte crying because I do my work, I don't gossip or cause problems and I stay at my desk and stay out of things that don't concern me.  So my meeting was supposed to be changed to Wednesday, it got cancelled.   It then was supposed to be Thursday, it got cancelled.  Now it's supposed to be next Tuesday....I am praying that God keeps dropping things in the way so this meeting never happens.  I am praying that it doen's happen before my surgery on March 6th.

I can't believe that she may be trying to do this to me.  I have no clue why.  I have never done anything wrong.  I got a an AWESOME review last year.  She just started in November and Im getting the impression I don't fit into her new scheme for the university since I don't like to recruit.  I like being in the background and love doing data entry and administrative work.
The program I used to recruit for was dicontinued (MIS) and I only started 3-4 of those classes because the interest was waning.  I started my Associate, Organizational Leadership and Business Administration programs this fall....not ONE of my classes were cancelled or pushed back.

So why is she targeting me?  Everyone used to come to me and tell me how much she really likes me and now all of a sudden...she wants to try to get rid of me?  Why?  Because I show myself friendly to people who are having a hard time and I care about them and dont just brush them off?

See, I think that is unfair (if this is the case).   And if that is why I am being targeted (because I keep friendship with people who need my strength, my encouraging words and a shoulder to cry on) it's not cool, and I don't know what to do.

I'm praying that God grants me favor and this meeting never happens, but if it does, I pray he will give me strength to keep my mouth shut, make it another  week and a half and then DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO WHILE IM OUT FOR SURGERY!!!

I've turned it over to God and I know whatever happens, it's for my good.  It's just hard to deal with because I've never had my work ethic called into question, and giving me 90 days to improve is bull.  I am if not the most MATURE Christian at work (there are a few who the Spirit attest they are his) and making me sign a document stating I need mentoring to be better in order to keep my job...it's nonsense.

*sighs*  I'm trusting you Lord.  I just don't know how much more I can deal with from this place.  I love the people I work with, but I just believe the Spirit of God is being pushed out and the flesh of man/a woman are taking over and the vision ONE MAN had for our school is being used in an incorrect manner.