nursldyjen

Send Message

Block

Add Friend

October 23rd I went to Westchester Medical Center here in NY at 6am for my Gastric Bypas, RNY. My best buddy Janice came with me and thank god for that. She watched over me like a mother hen guarding a chick. Surgery went well it was longer than the surgeons expected due to adhesions from prior surgeries, ( C-sect x 3, Ovarian Cyst rupture x 2, TAH, SBO and an abdominal wedge resection) and I am only 37 at the time. Anyway we make it through. Nursing care was substandard at best and once again I am more than grateful my buddy Janice is with me. We laugh, we cry, I wonder did I do the right thing, what did I just do! 6 months of preperation for this moment and now I wonder did I do the right thing? I am in the hospital 3 days, start to finish, go home with tarry stol that never seem to stop cannot even sip water get very dehydrated and end up back in the hospital for rehydration. Somehow the 5 days of tarry stool stop as I enter the ER dorrs, amazing. But I buy myself 3 more days in the hospital, this time I feel so much better and I am off and running, well walking to a new slimmer me. Its October, Happy Halloween, I walk a little with my son for trick or treating. Not too much not much energy. I am back to work pretty quickly, always need money. Sip Walk Rest, Sip walk rest. This is my mantra. A little further walking each day. Sipping isopure and water. Try a little broth, jello and crystal light. Minimal weight loss. November its Thanksgiving, mom wants me to eat some turkey, I have a bite and some mashed potatoe and some sweet potatoe, feel sick for hours. Too much too soon. I did it to make her happy. December 14th my bday mom makes me my favorite meal, Cheese Dumplings. Yummy. can only eat a little bit but its great. Now I am seeing some weight loss. This surgery is working. Go away with hubby to Poconos, cant eat too much, take lots of pictures, these will be very important later. December 18th mom goes into the hospital for the first of three sequential visits to get worse each time and eventually leave us all behind on Febuary 23rd. there are pictures during these times, lots of emotions and somehow I have bypassed sizes and didn't even know it was happening. The months were too short and are a blur of emotions. What do i weigh now? I know somewhere i broke the 200 mark that means i have lost over 90 lbs, when and how? Surgery is working. I feel good. I am looking good. Losing lots of hair, this is normal. taking vitamins, working, trying to be a part of life. My heart is ripped out over my mom and there is so much more I can say on the subject but I will move on. March is another of those blur months. I went to South carolina Myrtle Beach to support my middle dtr in her cheer competition. All the clothes I bring with me do not fit at all. they fit when i packed them 2 weeks ago. Hmmmm losing still. eating little. taking in all my proteins as I am supposed to do. The team comes in 2nd, i was happy to be a part of the sport. April this is cruise month. i am going with the hubby and my sweet little sister carolyn. We go to San francisco first for a visit then fly to LA and go on the Carnival Splendor to go to Mexico.... nope...Swine flu scare prevented our disembarktion from the ship. But we had a really great time. This trip had many firsts. My first alcohol, just a taste makes me drunk, Carolyn had to finish all my drinks. lol. I am able to wear my hubby's shorts, never ever could do this before. Most of my clothes are way too big. bought my first jacket size Small in Sauslito. WOW!!! Fit in the robe that they give you to wear in the room, never ever could before. Take lots of great pictures, have an amazing time and off to home in NY. We were OK with no Mexico. Happy Anniversary Greg you are now married to a thinner me! May just working and losing. June Summertime and no clothes to wear, hee he. I love it. July my debue to most of my family and friends, XS - Sm tops, size 10 botooms, Whose that girl! August is here I am 150lbs lighter! September is now and I am 145 lbs. I started at 315 in January of 2008. I am now 145# I never knew how good thin felt until now! Just bought my Size 8 dress. My Surgiversary is only a month in a half away. There are ups and downs. My body has changed, I don't recognize it. My hair no longer is falling out. People are telling me now to stop losing weight instead of the opposite. I dont think i like hearing that either. I am still in limbo with clothes. Winter is coming and I need a coat. WOW! What an amazing journey!