Long wait!

Jan 15, 2011

Well, it's been a long road to get here, but I finally have a surgery date: Feb 22, 2011!  I had to jump through all the hoops required by the insurance last fall.  Had to sit through a 3 month mandatory medically supervised diet program, then I had to wait out the holidays, but the countdown is finally on!

I haven't done much research on WLS since last August.  My surgery date was non-existent and I just felt too removed from the process to get very involved.  But suddenly this morning, I realized that I'm just about one month away from surgery and now I feel a very urgent need to get involved here on OH and to bring myself to terms with what's about to happen to me.

Actually, I guess I have been thinking about it quite a bit.  Every time I drink a Coke or eat a piece of chocolate, it's like I'm saying goodbye.  I love Coke and chocolate.  But I realize that after surgery, I will have to let them go forever.  This realization is both scary and exciting.  I think I can choose to look at it one of two ways:  it's either liberation or it's deprivation.  I'm working hard to bring myself around to seeing it as liberation!  I can finally lay that burden of "to indulge or not to indulge" down.  I can't have it, so that's it.  I don't have to worry about it anymore.  I can move on.

It will be good for me to explore my feelings on OH before the surgery, and I plan to begin daily journal entries starting today.  I think the key to successful WLS lies more in my mental health and attitudes, rather than in the physical changes that will be taking place in my body.  Dr. Davis can only operate on my stomach; he can't operate on my brain!  I have to do my part to be mentally and physically prepared before and after surgery.  It's a challenge.  But I can meet it.

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