Rcahalan
Day one of my blog
Jun 15, 2010
I have decided to start blogging as a way to venting and dealing with my problems.First the back story:
I have a Lap Band place April 30, 2007. The port was never able to be punctured so I needed a port revision. I had to fight with my insurance company to cover the procedure. I finally won and the port was flipped. I was able to get one small fill and then it flipped again. Once again I had to fight with the insurance company to get the procedure covered. It was denied and I appealed. At the end of 2007 I had the port flipped for the final time and it was placed in the middle of my cheast just below the bra line. During that year I put weight on. The psychological stress and emotion was horrible. I was hoping the God that this band would help me.
Fast foward to 2010. I have gotten a divorce, sold my home and purchased a condo, and gotten a new job. I now work in the office of the doctor who did my band. I have struggled to find the "green zone" for my band. It was great for one year, and I was down under 200 pounds for the first time in my memory. The band slipped and I was getting bad reflux. Some of the fluid had to be taken out and I needed to let things get back to normal. I did that and then the roller coaster began again. I would have a little fluid put in, and then it was be too much. Things would be good for a while, and then it would be bad. This year in March I couldn't take it any more. I was taking so much Omeprizole for acid reflux and it wasn't helping. I would wake up every night coughing and unable to lay down. I requested the band be completely void of any fluid. The surgeon removed all fluid and wrote a letter requesting approval to have the band taken out and for me to get a gastric bypass. They approved the band removal, but denied the bypass. I appealed, and it was denied. My doctor is in the midst of writing an appeal letter on my behalf with a possible peer-to-peer phone conversation.
I am now right back where I started. I am at a BMI of 42, and feeling tons of emotions. I run the support groups here, and I get heavier and heavier each month. I go up and present the information to groups of people interested in surgery, and I look like I need it myself. I had a guy ask my why I hadn't had the surgery. How am I supposed to answer that in a dimplomatic way? Impossible. I told him that I didn't qualify. Technically I don't....I've had my "once in a lifetime" surgery....and it FAILED!
Today I had the doctor put 1mL back in the band. I need help. I don't get full and as I mentioned above I'm right back where I started. It's humiliating, frustrating, imbarassing, and the list goes on.
It's my youngest daughters 5th birthday today and I should be happy and excited and I'm so depressed! I hate this. I hate how this has taken over my life AGAIN!
