Just blowing off some steam

Nov 18, 2009

 My surgery is about a month away. December 21 2009 is when I will have my gastric bypass surgery.  I'm not nervous about the surgery itself, more so nervous about being put under. I have never had anesthesia before.

But I now that I'm ready. I'm ready to make a change in my diet, exercising, ready to start the New Year a few pounds lighter! Some people say that getting the weight loss surgery is an easy way out..and oh boy are the wrong.  They have no idea on the food restrictions, the meal planning, the need for exercise, the fact that you have to avoid sugar, carbonation, alcohol. you will be taking vitamins for the rest of your life. ha! easy my ass!!! i think that people who say its the easy way out are ignorant and have never struggled with anything for years, like most people struggle with weight.

I have so many ambitions once I lose the weight.  I'm not getting the surgery to gain confidence, because I'm pretty confident already. I have an awesome husband, and awesome friends, and have fun every day!  There is no reason for me to be sad! lol.  But really, my weight has been constantly escalating, and no matter what I do...I keep gaining and can't lose.  If I do lose, I gain it back. I just can't seem to win.  You all know the story lol.

My biggest goal/wish is to look great the next time my husband and I go to Disney World.  It is in December 2010.  We have been in June of 2007 and 2009 for our engagement, and then our honeymoon, and both times we went on my birthday :).  This time we will be going for his birthday, and I guess I can celebrate my 1 year post op while down there!  But last time we went, I was scared of not being able to fit in the seat on the plane, and then fitting on the rides.  Some rides my husband and I could not ride together because it broke my heart. And when I looked at the pictures, I was just not happy.

And if anybody has been to Disnye, you know you WALK EVERYWHERE! You can easily walk 10 miles in a day walking around the park!  Now I managed to spend all day in the park, but I also have fibromyalgia, and lets just say I was in a ALOT of pain, and spent most of my day doped up on Percoset.  I want to be able to walk through the park, comfortable with my weight. Grant it I will be in pain, because the Fibro does not go away, BUT the pain from walking because of the weight will be gone..and for that I am glad. And I can take fantasic photos with my lovely husband and be happy.

Yay!!!

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