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Apr 15, 2010

-4/15/2010 ...Almost there on my 3 yr anniversary 5/30/2010! Today I feel like I have accomplished so much in such short amount of time. Some times i feel like I need to share my thoughts and feelings with someone. God has blessed me and blessed me and I am so thankful; without him I would not be where I am today. I'm battling with somethings right now that only god can help me with. My relationship with my kids have been at a distance and I need to refocuse and regroup. My marriage; has been for a little over a year. I've had a relationship with a guy that I thought made me happy and we share the same goals an values. But I ended it tonight; not sure if my heart is strong enough to let go but; I'm let god handle it.  I'm here to say that it has been a waste of my time and thats time that I can not rewind or get back, I love the man with all my heart but; it's time to let go and move forward.  Someone that is not happy with themselves can not make me happy and I have failed to realize that.  You take someone in with open arms and let them share a piece of your world but they dont appreciate it or value it.  So with that said I'm back on it mind ready to focuse and put all my trust and heart into GOD and I know he will see me thur all of this.. Tonight was the first time that I droped a couple tears; been really stressed / overwhelmed and lot going on ; I have decided to let go and let god...He is able!!

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