Friggin cookies

Nov 13, 2012

Yes, I did just use the "C" word.  I have a problem and I need help.  My coworkers keep bringing cookies, today they had 50 cupcakes because we had 4 birthdays.  Chocolate chip cookies, no bake cookies with peanut butter, sugar cookies with little candy corn turkeys on them.  WTF PEOPLE!? 

I can't lie.  I've had cookies.  and i need to STOP.  I'm 10 weeks out and I'm having frigging cookies?  I had this surgery to change not just my life but my life STYLE as well. 

Melting Mama posted on FB the other day that 2 extra saltines a day equals a pound of gained weight in a year.  What if i have a cookie a day!?  THEN where I am I??

Here's the issue...I've been "testing" to see what I can eat without causing dumping syndrome but...I'm not sure what dumping syndrome is!  I thought maybe I'd have a wicked upset stomach or start throwing up, but neither has happened.  I have some nausea, but i get that if I eat too fast. 

Yesterday, I moved the bloody cookies to a desk that I don't see every time I walk down the hall.  And I've asked them to please not bring cookies.  Oh, they had halloween candy so I thought, hey I'll bring in some sugar free so I can still feel like I'm part of the group....made me feel like a giant pile of POO!  Seriously.  The only other thing that I've eaten that has made me feel that bad is....well, I had a bite of a cupcake at a 6 year old's birthday party and THAT was bad.  She kept insisting, though.  hard to tell a 6 year old no when she's trying to give you a cupcake.  and I daren't teach her the word "diet" because I do NOT want to be blamed for any complexes she may have when she gets older. 

I resisted the cupcakes today (since I had such an awful experience with the 6 year old) and I feel okay about that, but...not the rest of it.  No. More. Cookies.  No more SCREWUPS.  Not now. 

Riddle me this, though, Batman...why is it so easy for me to decide to eat a cookie when I start CRYING over whether I should eat a lean cuisine or just skip dinner??  AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. 

Food is the devil. 

PS: I think that guy and I from several blogs ago, even presurgery ones, are officially together.  and I find out on Thursday if/why my uterus is screwed up and causing me A) not to have periods and B) not to be able to have kids. Probably won't find out anything, but hanging with a 6-year old at Chuck E Cheese (No, I didn't eat pizza, I had a muscle milk!) made me wish I had a kid of my own to yell at when they would be doing things they aren't supposed to do. oh well. that's a WHOLE different blog.

Pizza Out!

Sarah x

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