Two days til Thanksgiving

Nov 20, 2012

Well, it's happened.  "Man, this must be really hard for you." he says...."What's that?" I ask.  "This thanksgiving potluck and all this food."  was his response.  "Not really," I say, "I organized the pot luck.  I have a food plan.  I'm good."  and it's TRUE! 

I don't need your food pity.  So little smokies probably weren't the optimal choice, but of what was available, it was the BEST choice.  I had a few of those, some cheese, and some sliced genoa salami.  I had one chip with some salsa.  and yes, I even had a BITE of two of the 6 different desserts we had.  Do I feel guilty?  Nope, a little nauseated b/c one was Peanut Butter Fudge (anyone have a SF recipe for that!?) and even though I ate less than half a tablespoon of that and less than half a tablespoon of some pineapple pie thing, they look at me like I'm some giant sinner.  Look.  It's about control.  Sure, i've got issues with cookies (which haven't reappeared by the way!) and now I know I can't have peanut butter fudge and I can't have whatever the pie was.  Fine, it's OKAY!  I focused on my proteins first and foremost.  Then I'm having water.  Really.  I'm GOOD.  Oh, then he tried to tell me that I should eat baby food because that really helped him bulk up when he was in college.  Um, hello. I'm trying to LOSE WEIGHT not bulk up!  Silly!  He's just trying to help, though, and I appreciate that.

I'm looking forward to the deviled eggs.  I make them every year for Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve.  I normally would've made them for the pot luck, but have had a cold and didn't want to give it to anyone else.  I know they like it when I share, but NOT germs. 

So anyway.  that's where I stand.  Black Friday List:  New bra, potentially a new pair of jeans, new sheets, and MAYBE a surround sound system for the living room, but if not that, at least a BluRay player so I don't have to constantly move from one room to the other. 

Things are going okay with the boy, I think.  Anxiety level is way higher than it should be, but it's been so long since I've been in a relationship EVERYTHING affects me.  But he understands that I got burned bad last time so I'm skeptical and second guess everything, especially myself.  But it seems every time we hang out, I lose weight.  Could it be because I'm too anxious to eat in front of him or because we have a lot of..um...fun.  ;)

Seriously though...10 lbs so far this month.  That's good, right?  about a pound every two days?  Far more than I could've hoped for, I assure you, especially after last month. 

that's all.  Love to all! 

*hugs*

Sarah x

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