Shirley J.
Need to start over again and again and again....
Jun 24, 2010
Its been almost 2 years since my LapBand Surgery. I started off doing great. Went from 297 to 218 # in about 1 year. But then the old me woke up and I realized that there were other foods I could tolerate, like cake and ice cream, cookies, ribs, potato salad. The list kept growing. Sure there are foods I don't do well with like bread, chicken, spaghetti, mac & cheese, beef. But, it doesn't bother me to eliminate those from my diet. I have so much more to choose from. I've gained about 20 lbs back and I'm so upset with myself. I'm so embarrassed. Even though I understood that the LapBand was only a tool to be used in my weightloss walk, I've realized that I really didn't understand how to use this tool. Mainly, my eating problem is much deeper than I ever realized. Everyday is a battle. I make it pretty good during the day but at bedtime like clockwork I start having almost uncontrollable cravings for food, bad food. I can sometimes fight it with a bowl of cereal but manytimes I loose the battle and give in. Everyday I have to start over. Today, for the first time, I read the OH Newsletter and realized that I'm not in this alone and many are going through what I am going through. I was so frustrated that I didn't want to tell anyone how tough this was and how I felt like a failure. I should have been active on this site a long time ago. What are you doing to win this battle? How are you staying on track? Or, getting back on track?