From myspace blog pretty much sums up my thoughts:
Well today marks my 2nd rebirthday as many of my gastric bypass friends and I like to call it...some say surgiversary as well. We're pretty imaginative huh? LOL! Whatever you call it, it is a very special day for me and one I can't believe has arrived so quickly. When I think back over the past two years, really all a blur to me now, I cannot believe how drastically my life has changed.
Just two years ago I weighed 265lbs. At my height that put my BMI at 45.5 which falls into the category of morbidly obese. Let me tell you that is not an easy thing to hear, the word morbid attached to your condition. I had even applied for life insurance and been denied due to my morbid obesity and that really hit home for me, this company didn't want to insure me because they felt I was at a high risk of dying early. Wow! My body fat percentage was over 50% meaning that of the 265lbs I was lugging around, at least 130lbs of me was pure fat. I couldn't say I was just big boned or use any other excuse, it was FAT. I was wearing a size 26/28 in jeans and miserable in my own skin. I think I put up a pretty good front but on the inside I was very unhappy with how far I had let myself go. There was no one to blame but me, it was not genetics or anything else it was bad choices on my part and choices that no matter how much I tried I couldn't seem to get right long term.
On Sept 7, 2005 I walked into the O.R. of Carmel St. Vincent hospital at 11:55am and my life has never been the same. From the moment I woke up I knew it was the beginning of a new life for me and it has been. I have followed the rules given to me very closely and taken my decision very seriously. Gastric bypass surgery is NOT the easy way out. I still have to make (and struggle) with choices every single day about what to eat and not eat and whether to exercise. My new tool has given me the help and confidence I need to make the right choices. As a reminder to myself of what I was willing to give up when I had this surgery, I went on a protein fast this week. From Sunday night at dinner until Wednesday night at dinner I did not have a single bite of food, I only drank protein supplements and water. Was I hungry? YES! But I know now that what and when you eat is a choice and I used my tool and my willpower to say no to the food and remind myself of what I am capable of.
My surgeon is amazing and I love her dearly for giving me a second chance at life. The Carmel bariatric center of Excellence is just that....excellent! I could not ask for a better support program to help me on my life long journey of continued health.
I reached my ultimate goal weight of 130lbs in November 2006 and have maintained at or below that ever since. This morning I sit here at 125lbs and thrilled with my life. I now have a BMI of 21 and a body fat percentage of 18% which falls well within the healthy range of 17-24%. That means that of my 125lbs I am only carrying 23lbs of fat. Now I can comfortably wear a size 4 in jeans, a size that was never even in my wildest dreams. I have also lost over 100 inches from my body, including 19 inches from my waist, 22 inchest from my hips and 14 inches from each thigh!! I can do ANYTHING I want to do now, as I have proven in the last few months with my marathon training. I look better on the outside but more importantly I feel better on the inside. I love the person I have become in just two years and person I know I can continue to be for life thanks to this surgery.
I want to thank every family member and friend who has supported me through the past two years and will continue to support me in the future. I know many people were scared when I made the decision to alter my digestive track forever, it was a big decision but one I would not change for anything. I was blessed with a speedy recovery, no complications and no troubles tolerating foods and I know how lucky I am. I also know how hard I have worked to get where I am and I do not give all of the credit to the surgery, it helped ME get myself to where I am today. You see many people have gastric bypass and regain their weight, that is because it is not the magic answer. I will never let myself forget that and I will continue to do what I need to do to stay the healthy person I have become and love. It's a wonderful life!!