smoking

Mar 22, 2010

As wls is going to be the beginning of my new healthy life I think that i need to mention that I am a smoker. I have been a smoker for 16 years of my 28 year life. I smoke 15-20 cigarettes a day! Writing that down disgusts me. I hate the fact that I started smoking, its a disgusting habit that only harms me. I know that nothing, and i mean absolutely nothing good comes from smoking, yet I still do it. I am addicted. I hate that I have this addiction, I personally see smoking as being more harmful to my health than all this weight I am carrying. I know that i have more chance of complications under the anesthetic, I know  that i will take longer to heal and i know that if i do not stop then smoking will kill me... so unless i quit then why am i bothering to to put myself through wls to better my health when i am just going to be killing myself with somethng else? 
I say to myself that i am going to quit. I really want to quit. I devise all these plans and have my head set that I am not going to smoke anymore, or that i am going to cut down gradually so that I wean myself off of these disgusting things. I manage to stick to the plan for like 2 hours until all I can think about is having another cigarette and eventually I give in. I have tried having none in the house, but i just go out and buy more.
So thats the whinge and the woe is me. I need to start being more pro-active in this battle to overcome this addiction. What i am going to do is call the "quit line" (its a government line set up to advise the best way to quit and products ie nictine patches etc that will help, and i am going to LISTEN to the advice given to me and I am going to do it! Enough with the writing about me quitting, I am off to call and to finally kick this habit for good! 

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