sptalents
February 2010
Feb 15, 2010
February 18, 2010What is wrong with me? I can not get on track! My mind is willing...but the mouth gets in the way!
I suppose that I need to get out the packet that Dr. M gave me from the very beginning and try to pretend that I am having surgery soon and get some of this off! I am so mad at myself. Why am I so weak?
I felt so good about myself and my success with the band. I can tell you honestly....if you have to go through what I have been through...PLEASE try to keep your weight off.
I was really feeling great. My body did not hurt...I could get around well and enjoyed my life. NOW....I hurt! I don't know if it is all due to the weight I have regained ... or if it goes back to my fall in October. Whatever it is, I am miserable. I know that I need to get back to the gym, but it will be a slow process again...I feel like I am at the beginning.
I am waiting to hear from physical therapy if I have been approved or not...I definitely do not want to aggravate anything...but I am ready to feel better. I am tired all the time and go to sleep at night...but wake up hurting...so even though I am sleeping, I am not resting.
So enough of me tonight. Just keep me in thought as I am struggling to at least get back to where I was. Thanks for listening.
February 15, 2010
Well, here I am again. I don't think anyone knows, unless you have been through this, and truly wanted to keep your band...what I have been going through. I have been so depressed. I stopped reading about the people who HATE their band...it just made me angry...I can't talk to the person here in town who wants his band removed...because I think what a waste! I have followed diets all of my life!
So you know what? I have truly destroyed me...not completely...but I have gained 30-40 pounds back! I am ashamed to admit it. I am afraid of gaining the rest back. I was doing so well....and now...I don't follow any diet... and trying to get back is h***! I had the band removed on Sept. 11th...how appropriate...and then I fell at school the first part of October. I hurt the left side of my body enough that it has been difficult to go back to the gym. Anyway...my gp would only tell me...I will see you in a month. So now, he finally had me go to see an ortho...but no one is listening. I don't think it was bone that was hurt...I think it was muscle or tendons.....and about two weeks ago...I turned over in bed and something popped so loud I could hear it. It made me sick to my stomach and I couldn't stand on it for a while. Then it felt a little better. Anyway, today they took xrays AGAIN. Of course, nothing showed with the KNEE...except I have severe arthritis. So he said the one thing I didn't want to hear! Shot! He did this in 2002 when my knee was acting up and I literally drug my leg out of his office. I cried and asked him what other options I had. So he said that I would probably also have therapy. He left me to decide. He came back and I agreed....the shot hurts! But I was amazed that I could stand on the leg and walk. He told me that it would feel better and then probably not so great the next two days. He was right....for about 3 hours everything was fine...then all of a sudden...PAIN. It hurts so bad right now. I dread tomorrow and trying to work on it. I am suppose to go to meet with therapy tomorrow if it is approved. We will see.
I am still trying to make a decision about surgery. It will be this summer if I do. Everything I read about the sleeve sounds positive except....if I am correct...that there is a possibility of two surgeries ( the sleeve and then the bypass) due to my BMI. I would rather go ahead and have the bypass if this is true. I guess I need to get out Scarlett again....I will think about that tomorrow!
Anyway...I haven't been here in so long that I thought I needed to pop in. I hope to get my depressed bottom in gear and try to lose what I have gained. I need A NEW ATTITUDE!
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west monroe, LA
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11/18/2013
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Jul 15, 2005
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