sptalents
May 2010
May 09, 2010
May 23, 2010Yesterday was not a great day. Whether it be weight related or not....I suffer from SEVERE thigh cramps...sometimes inner...sometimes upper and sometimes in the back of them.....but whatever...it feels like the muscles are literally being pulled out of my body....the doctor gave me Robaxin to take...problem is...I guess I need to have a necklace made to carry the pill so I have it immediately. Robert was out of town and my sister-in-law had told us about "leg cramps" a medicine. He bought me some....the first time they hit yesterday I was in the living room and the medicine was in the bedroom. I absolutely have no use of the leg it is affecting...I got up and drug my leg to the "formal living" room and stood there and cried.....I was able to finally walk enough that it eased up. I thought GREAT! So I started in the bedroom and as soon as I reached the bed it hit again! I looked pathetic I am sure....I looked like a commercial....standing on one leg, holding the other leg, crying, stretching to reach the bottle, opening it with one hand, pouring the medicine on the bed, grabbing 2 pills, and swallowing them with water. Walked some more until the pain went away...decided to get in the shower and put warm water on the muscle....decided I needed the phone in case I got into trouble....went to the other side of the bed and when I was near the phone....the cramp started again....walked until it let up and took a shower. Thought all was well......about 4 or 5 hours later....they happened again....once again I hobbled to the formal living area....called my sister-in-law and couldn't even talk. This time I took the medicine the dr. gave me. When I went to bed....I took another pill. I hope that is the last of them for a while!
Last night mom called me and told me to turn the channel and watch the 6weekbody makeover. There was even a former wls patient on there. She said if they could do it so could I and I needed to order the program. I looked it up on the internet and there were several complaints with the company. These were concerning the "promised refund" if you were not satisfied and the taste of the food. Flavor is important to me. Anyway...I will wait and see what Dr. Merriman has to say....
May 21, 2010
Something happened the other night that makes me know this is the right decision. I just have to get past the consult and find out which procedure will be best for me. My BMI is in the 60's, so I want to make sure that if I choose the sleeve...that it will be a one step procedure...because if I am going to have to pay for yet another surgery in order to get where I need to be...then that will play a huge part of my decision.
School is almost out. One of my children's last day was today. She has been a challenge...but I will truly miss her. And Monday will be the hardest. It will be the last day for my other student and the end to the class I have been teaching. I will have to wait and see what comes of next year. So far I will return to resource...we will see.
May 19, 2010
I am feeling a little more positive today. I have decided that this will give me the month of June to get things done around the house and with my sewing that I have meant to accomplish. With that said, I had a pretty hard time the other night thinking about this. Many of you know that we lost a dear friend during heart surgery that was considered "elective" because it wasn't a pressing matter at that moment. I started thinking about him and that I too am going to give in and have "elective" surgery for the second time. Well as "elective" as this may be in the eyes of others....for me it means life. I had just started feeling better when the band eroded. I was devestated! I have had a hard time dealing with "my loss" and also a hard time dealing with food. I have gained some of the weight back and am not happy with that! I want to be here for my husband, my mom, my dad, and my daughter. I don't want to just exist and not be able to help them when they need it. I want to feel like I did...I was able to get around really well and felt like doing things again....now I hurt again ALL THE TIME....I saw an amazing show on tv the other night....I cannot even tell you the name of it...but the guy went to a facility to exercise and they put an inflatable device around him and as it inflated...it gave him the sense of what it would feel like with the weight off...he was amazed...he said that when it was inflated at the point that he would have been "100" pounds lighter...he felt like he could run! I want to feel like that! Do you? This is not elective....THIS IS LIFE !!!!
May 17, 2010
I am about to give up. I do have an appointment on the 2nd...but just opened an email that said my Dr. will be out of town for about two weeks...that puts surgery the last part of June or the first of July....that only gives me about 6 weeks to heal before school starts. This may seem petty to some...but it seems that every year something happens and I miss a lot of school....I wanted to have this done soon so that I have plenty of time to heal and feel great for school. I am a little discouraged tonight.
May 10, 2010
I have an appointment with Dr. Merriman on the 2nd of June to discuss my options.
May 9, 2010
Happy Mother's Day to all of you.
I can't believe that it is May.....I can't believe that it is already the end of school. Both of the girls are moving and their last day will probably be the 21st. We have field day on Friday (if it doesn't rain). The end of this school year will be bittersweet. I will miss them....and this year has been a TRUE learning experience. We all need those occasionally! ha/ha
Decisions will be made soon about my next step. I am still undecided.
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west monroe, LA
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11/18/2013
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Jul 15, 2005
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