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Ok I am giving another week and then I am going for a fill, I have some restriction but not sure enough. I guess after the one fill that left me not able to swallow my own salvia has left me a litttle fill gun shy. I can't keep going up in weight, I am going to really try and stick to good food choices and do protein first, that way I will know if I need a fill or if it has been my fault for not making wise food choices.  I need to come back here more often, that is the other thing I need to be doing, I always loved reading others posts on forum and haven't been on here again in to long, so there ya go I getting back on track!!!!!

I haven't been here in a while, and it shows in the way I have been eating. I am really not sure what is going on, because I have restriction, but I just don't have the patients to work it, and end up eating bad things rather than take the time to chew the protein. When I do start with solid protein I feel stuck right away. So I just wait a few minutes and then try to eat the more softer foods and then work the protein in slowly. I know this is not the way, and I am going down on Monday to see my doctor, I don't think I need a fill, cause if I did, I wouldn't be getting stuck so easily. I will hopefully find out what is going on, and start working this band again.

OK, I know that I haven't been eating right, mainly because I have been sick, and I can't eat solid protein, but to gain weight is really pissing me off. I know I shouldn't have had the chocolate shakes, and chips and dip, and more ice cream, but it goes down, and with me not feeling well I haven't been doing anything but laying around, to tired to move, but not to tired to eat all the bad things. I did try pinto and cheese, and that got stuck, so  I ate what would go down, and now I am at 230 again, it was 235 on Monday which really set me in a tail spin, but started eating just protein shakes, instead of ice cream shakes, and today it is 230, still 5 pounds up, and now having to lose the same weight all over again. I know it is my fault, lesson learned, but the band can be fickle, not only do I have a sinus infection but also upper repository infection, went to walk in clinic yesterday and got anti biotic, cause my regular doc wouldn't give me one cause he just gave me one in April, so said to get Zyrtec which is for allergies, I don't have allergies, never have, I know my body and when I tell him I have sinus infection I  know I have sinus infection not allergies, so sinus went into upper respiratory which it always has when I don't' get anti biotic to clear the sinus infection. Jeez I could have been feeling better in a couple of days instead of still suffering for over a week, but no he had to do it his way, so just went to walk in clinic and got the meds so hopefully I will be feeling better by this weekend if not sooner. I know I am ranting and raving , but on top of being sick my period started on Monday and I am  flowing really heavy, so much for going threw my change of life, that isn't happening, I give up, I am going to be 52 and all my friends have already stopped having periods and old fertile Bertile here is still cycling on, causing me heavy bleeding and cramps that could pass a baby, and yes my band is also suffering by being to tight at these times, but who knows when it will loosen up, with me being sick and all. OK, I am done having a hissy fit, going to try and move today, have to get those freaking 5 pounds off again, and get the freaking scale moving in the right direction again, I want to be at least 200 by my year anniversary, if I don't get there, I will be one pissed off  still ovulating, woman, and guess who I am going to be pissed at? ME, it is all my fault, not the band, not the doctor, not my husband( at least not this time), not the kids, just me, and I don't' like being mad at me, so I need to quit whining and get it in gear, so if anyone who reads this wants to give me some advice with getting to 200 by September 10Th please pipe in. I am done so I will be back when there is some good news to write about........

I know I have read that when your sick you can't eat, hopefully, I will lose tons of weight during this time, but I doubt it,  I have been stuck between 225 and 230 forever now, I know I don't need a fill cause I can't eat solid protein slowly without getting stuck  after couple of bites. I try and follow band rules with protein first but if I want to eat a little more than two bites i will eat mushy stuff first and then solid protein. I just hope the scale will start moving again soon, ( thanks Leanne for saying you lost 10 pds in one month) cause I had figured those days are over. I am way behind for the normal weight loss, and I just would love to be at 80 pds at my 1 year anniv., but right now I feel like poo and cant get motivated to do any exercise maybe when I feel better. Oh well enough wining for now.