Evil, Evil Night

Jan 15, 2010

As soon as the darkness falls - my cravings go mad! I'm finding that at Night - I am StARVING - whether real or imaginary and  it is all I can do to not rip the crackers out of the cabinet and shove them all down my throat. It's torture.
I'm also finding that I'm mindlessly tasting my kids' food as I'm preparing their dinners. I caught myself last night with a spoonful of mashed potato as I swallowed it.. not good. I'm going to have to be aware of the unconscious nibbles - especially at night.
This is my first weekend at home and I'm really nervous. I've stocked up on protein shakes, string cheese, yogurt, sugar-free jello, chicken broth, eggs, lettuce, and collard greens - I'm hoping to just make it through this weekend without going carb-crazy. I'm making a plan to exercise as well  - so I'm going to the gym at 10 this morning, and then I'm going to help my mother move - which will make me even MORE stressed out and craving carbs. I'm hoping that if I just exhaust myself - then when I get home tonight, I'll fall into bed and not worry about the carbs lurking in the cabinet.
This is hard. It's not just a quick fix - it's a whole lifestyle change. I've decided that once a month - One time a month - I will allow myself a carb day - and that will be ok. Who knows - maybe on that day, I will find I don't want it - but one time a month - for a birthday party, for a celebration, for a date night - it will be ok to have carbs. I will allow myself bread on that day.
I've got my daughter's b-day at the end of the month - I think that will be my carb day.

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