So I'm trying to get my protein in, but this is hard!  I'm starting to lose my hair.  I eat cheese, chicken, power peanut butter, you name it... but never make it past 40ish.  I can't eat that much!!!  I mean, don't get me wrong... I can put down a good 5-6 oz, but not enough for all of that.

There's only one protein shake I like, and to drink it every day is like eating a Thanksgiving meal!  AURGH.  I'm so irritated with myself.  I've GOT to find a way to get this protein in!

It's official!  My size 24s gotta go.  Last week, as I left church, even my pastor said, "Ummm... you're almost outta those clothes, kiddo."  LOL  I guess it would be bad for my jogging pants to fall off in church.

It's getting cold anyway, so I brought all my winter clothes out from last year, and they are mostly 18s.  THEY FIT.  My favorite red jogging suit FITS.  I am just beside myself.  I know, in my head, I'm losing weight, but it's hard to tell when you not only see yourself all day every day, but you still see the fat jiggling around. LOL God help me, I am finally able to see/feel a difference.

I really, really miss it.  I miss steak, beef, burgers, spaghetti sauce with with meat... sigh.  I can't tolerate it.  I know that in a few months I might be able to, but right now it blows right back out.  SO FRUSTRATING!

Guess I'll just have to console myself with some chicken and a spoonful of mashed potatoes.  Ahh, well... if that's the only price, and temporary at that, I have to pay to get this 120 lbs off of me, then so be it.

My surgery was August 3rd, and I've already hit a plateau?  I thought for sure that once that stuck pill was removed, and I could get my water down, the weight loss would increase, but it hasn't.  At one point, my weight popped back up two pounds for like 4 days!

I am so frustrated, but not enough to give up.  Small setback!!!  My husband is leaving for Afghanistan soon, and perhaps this is stress related.  Throw in 1 year old twins, a 15 year old, my mother living with us, and winter coming... yeah, maybe it's all stress related!

So I finally had the endoscopy done yesterday, and oh my GOODNESS.  What a trip!

First off, the night before it, I ate three cheerios and, as usual, lost 'em.  I usually flush while vomiting because it's GROSS and upsets me, but saw a white tablet looking thing come out.  I was shocked.  Should've grabbed it but...eww.  Besides, I'd already hit the flush.

So I tell the endoscopy doc about it, and he says it sounds like a stricture, but that it was concerning to hear about something like that coming out.  Fifteen minutes later, I'm in recovery, and he brings me pictures of the potassium chloride pill STILL IN MY POUCH!!!  And may I just remind you guys that I don't think I've taken one since last FRIDAY.  Holy guacamole.

He did say that the hole was also closing so that just added to the problem.  He opened up the hole and removed the offending pill  He instructed me to continue on with my regular diet and come back if there are any more problems, but NO MORE of those PILLS.  He also let my bariatric surgeon (who is a personal friend, as well) know.

My husband was LIVID.  "I KNEW you should not have been taking those.  They were TOO big!  I knew it!"  LOL  Okay, dude, you're a chef, not a doctor.  Anyway, just wanted to let you guys know.  I'm happily drinking water and eating way more than I thought possible, VERY comfortably.  Maybe this wasn't such a bad decision after all!