usmcchick1981
Just the beginning....
Mar 29, 2011
203! When the dr walked into the exam room he asked me how I was & I simply said, annoyed. I explained to him that I don't understand why I keep gaining and not losing a pound. He really had nothing to say....I mean, a month before this appointment I weighed 196 and at that appointment I was 1 pound under the prior months appointment. That was a smack in the face that month because I worked out, walked, cut back on my food intake and let me tell ya, cutting back was so hard bc my stomach constantly growls.I am so lost for words. I have this feeling that if I ever get to go in and see a dr for this weight issue, they will deny me basically because I'm not well..bigger. I have had back issues for the past 8yrs. My chest doesn't help the fact either. I used to be a 38C & again, once I got pregnant with my son 8 yrs ago, I turned into a 42DD. I never lost an inch off of my breast size! Carrying these watermellons and then the added belly fat, geez, IDK why my back would be KILLING me.
A year ago I started going to a chiropractor who is amazingly awesome! I asked him if he would write me a referral to get a breast reduction and he said most def. Well, since I have state managed care insurance, it's not that easy to find a surgeon. I live an hr from West VA and 2hrs east of Columbus Ohio. Another girl who sees the same doctor as I, is going to get her breast reduction done the end of April. I called where she is going and of course, the managed care I pick, the doctor doesn't accept yet! So here I am......needing to lose this frontal fat to regain my strong back I once had.
So now I have an 8yr old son who has adhd, can we say hyper, and an 18month old daughter who is pretty active herself. I've been dealing with this weight issue for my sons entire life. I've hid behind these doors and never wanted to take my son any where fun like an amusement park because I hate when people look at me, I wont wear summer clothes bc I'm so fat...I feel like a disgrace. I know my kids won't care or remember mommy being "big." But I get so out of breath doing the littlest things. ahhhhh
All I know is I never thought I'd see the day where I would have a double chin (which is sweating to death with my chin tucked in to type on this netbook) a stomach that hangs, my arms that have "bat flaps" my thighs that now touch and dont move, at the top...
If I could just cut this stomach off. it's just plain gross and soo unattractive.
the wasteband of my underwear become covered with this hanging stomach. Uhh.. I'd just love to post some pics of me. The photos where one would never guess I weigh as much as I do and then the ones of this stomach and the rest of the fat.
I wear a size 16, well, now an 18 but I'm in denial so I'm trying to squeeze myself in the 16s still. I blame it on the drier!! sad...sad...sad... :)
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