Victorious_one
How Things Change!
Nov 30, 2011
I now find myself someplace I never thought I'd be....below goal!
I'm like, whuuuhhh, for real???
The DSers have started a Facebook group now. I posted a picture there of my scale at 139ish lbs. I was so proud, and so happy!
Since then, I've lost a few more pounds. I've gotten down to 135. I should be doing a happy dance, right?
The good news is that I DID indeed reach my goal of 140 lbs! 140 put me at the midpoint of my normal BMI range for my height. I did go to the Olympics...and I won the GOLD!
The not-so-great news is:
A) I wear a size 2 in slacks now, and you can't really find those everywhere cheap.
B) I have NO BEHIND. I'm completely butt-less.
C) I'm shaped like a banana instead of an hourglass.
D) I look easily 10 years older than I did when I had surgery.
E) Our finances are such that I can't afford clothing that fits me, so I don't get to benefit from a new wardrobe.
F) Frankly, I look like a skeleton.
I never thought I would ever be in this place. I'm stuck. The bigger, better part of me is like, "don't be stupid, stop speaking about your gripes and complaints and enjoy being small and healthy!" But that little voice that is still a fat girl is saying, "it's all too much, it's all too much..."
Instead of hoping for more weight (I don't! I won't!), I'm going to hope that my fat redistributes itself and helps me to look more shapely and healthy. Until then, I'm going to find my happy, for real.
This is a journey, folks, not a destination. All major life changes are.
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About Me
South Central, PA
Location
21.1
BMI
Surgery
06/07/2010
Surgery Date
Jan 13, 2007
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