That old nesting feeling

May 05, 2013

Last time I felt like this I was getting ready to have my daughter 13 years ago. I'm going through everything. I've been cleaning for days and organizing, I don't think there's much left unturned. I don't know where the energy is coming from, but I'm now four days away from my surgery on Friday. I really want everything taken care of before I go so when I come home there's nothing hanging over me that I can't handle. 

I have all my things, I imagine I'll pack Wednesday. Rides are arranged and swimming meets covered. Husband has the day and weekend away from work. All bills are paid and what's pending is enveloped and ready to post. 

I am thinking I'm more and more in the mindset of the new me arriving when I wake from surgery. I'm realistic, I know I won't go home looking thinner or anything like that, I just know that I'm ready to BE the new me. I already am. Mostly I just want to get on with things. This really has consumed so much of my life; eating myself to this weight took some time and effort and then the process of getting to surgery is a task. I'm ready to focus on life. I'm ready to just live with my new regimen. 

I am ready. 

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