Washu
Needing space
Sep 24, 2013
I have been needing to distance myself from some people in my life. I won't let anything get in the way of my progress I have made with weight loss or that I plan to make over the next year. I have lost 95 pounds and I have at 60 - 65 more to go. I was feeling old emotions creeping in and had to cut that crap right out. The things effecting me were easily omitted so I can concentrate on both coping with emotions at the moment and keeping up my momentum. People are just going to have to understand and deal with it. I can deal with the fall out. I cannot deal with the added stress. I never realized just how trying a time it would be with three teenagers. I know many have been there done that - but I'm recently arrived and man it is not easy.
Okay enough of the negative stuff.
Grocery shopping this week with all three kids and the husband went interesting! After getting through to check out the woman behind me struck up a conversation and asked if the kids were ours. I laughed and said yes of course. She said I didn't look old enough to have kids that old! I LOVE HER! :) Definitely made the giant food bill much more tolerable this week. I am not sure if I will take everyone again for a while but it was good. My daughter was given the duty of making the list and organizing it before we got to the store; I did coupons saving @ $31 this trip. She did a great job on the list and even included ingredients for a soup dinner that included Kale. I love her. They have taken all of this seriously and only complained here and there with the new changes in our diet. They have come to love ground turkey/turkey products but definitely do not like ground chicken very much. No problem. I think allowing some 'naughty' foods occasionally lets them feel like they are still having their treats. I have to say I love their ability to compromise on this stuff lately.
My workout schedule has kept us busy. I have put my all into it and get two workouts a day on Tuesdays and Thursdays - single workouts 3-4 of the other days. My husband joins me on Tuesdays and Thursdays and sometimes the kids also come to work out too. Our gym is great and inexpensive. Have a great workout partner I actually met through here abstractly. She introduced me to this gym and I am still so grateful. My girls (step siblings both age 13) aren't keen on doing cardio but I am trying to get them both moving. One can't get her heart rate to rise and acts lethargic most of the time and the other is more like me with a high heart rate and rapid breathing. This one's heart rate was like mine when I started jogging a few weeks ago. She was up at 195 during her ten minutes on the elliptical. I want to see her get into that 10 minutes and maybe go further with a lower heart rate. She will breathe easier and feel better and move easier too. She doesn't seem upset with my urging her to move more and is conscious of her food. She is in a healthy BMI but it's just her fitness level I would love to see improve. I think both girls would want to be more active than they are now if their heart health was being worked a little harder. They don't have gym class at school as they are in the band program. I have to keep them active!
So other than being on a little bit of an emotional roller coaster and managing some back pain around my ribs/neck things aren't too bad. I'm happy with my weight loss so far. Past couple weeks were hanging out at 184-85 and the scale finally moved this week and I'm down to 180. Five more pounds until I get a night at the casino to celebrate a hundred pounds gone. I'm working my tail off to get that night out!! I can't wait and need some free time just enjoying the night and my hubby. Maybe I'll win a little money too! :D
