Here We Go

Jan 31, 2018

Well, here I am, the day before my surgery and I cannot believe it! I have been waiting 8 months for this. It is really hitting home and I am really nervous and I have a lot of anxiety! The fear of the unknown. What's the pain going to be like? Am I going to have a hard time with the new diet and lifestyle? Am I going to cry every five seconds? How much weight am I going to lose? 

I attended the support group this past Monday and I am so happy I went. It is really great to hear from everyone that they are happy they made the decision and would do it all over again if they had the choice. That makes me feel so much better because they were just like me, overweight and eating unhealthy. If they can do it, then why can't I? I was successful on a diet but it just costed way too much for me to continue. So, I have proven to myself that I can do this. I am putting myself first. The guest speaker at the support group was a pychologist and she said this at the end; "remember to tell yourself Because I Can." I printed a sheet that says that in my office and I have decided it is going to be my motto through my whole journey. 

I am ready for this, I want this and I need this. I am doing this for me and for me only. I want to be happy. I want to be healthy. I want to have a better self esteem. I want to sit on a plane and not need a seatbelt extender. I want to sit at a sporting event and not feel crunched next to the person next to me. I want to cross my legs. I want to wear cute clothes and look cute in them. My husband deserves to have a sexy wife. I want my family to be proud of me and not worry because every time they see me I have gained weight. It is time for a change and the time is now; well tomorrow to be exact.

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