Listen to this bologna!!!!!

Jan 08, 2009

still on this crazy diet.
still don't feel like i lost any weight.
i didn't think i could consume so much water.
seriously. holy shit! to how much water i can drink....
also, Stop and Shop brand Lemon-Lime Crystal Lite is pretty damn good.

on another note, i have to post this, cuz it pissed me off so much last night.
let me preface by saying, i've been with my boyfriend going on 2.5 years or so.
I've been heavy the entire time we've been together, though when we moved to CT
i ballooned pretty bad. Whatever, i've dieted and yo-yo'd like a duncan.
At any rate, i'm trying to get some sexy time going and finally he gives in....
and he can't get it totally get it up. this has always been a sorta issue sometimes.
i get discouraged, cuz lets face it, its pretty hard [ no pun intended] to hump something
not hard....so whatever it just gets awkward and he says to me after much silence.
"i'm just used to being with skinny girls that i can rolll around with and be crazy....your body type
isn't my type. You make me feel like the woman in bed and i hate it, thats why i don't like having sex with you"
I WAS FLOORED. FUCKING FLOORED.
we've had this conversation before, but i dunno, i've lost weight on this liquid diet and he knows that i'm having this operation {NO NOT FOR HIS SCRAWNY ASS!} and i don't know.
I feel like the next few months are going to be a real challange in our relationship as I change and he realizes as I change and lose weight, my confidence will increase.
I was once a bombshell when i was younger, and i plan on being one again very soon.

AMEN TO THAT!

on other note:  TUESDAYS THE BIG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hell yeah!

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