5 Weeks Post-op

Feb 21, 2011

I keep trying to blog my progress so that I can look back when I am further on in my journey. The only problem is I never know what to write about.

I am feeling better now than what I was at 2 weeks out. More relaxed about shit. I am trying to eat different foods but still haven't been too successful with that. The fear is still there, not as bad but still there. I can eat some bacon, the big whole 2 slices, yummy. I am eating oatmeal but can only handle about 3 oz of it. I add frozen fruit or peanut butter to it. I can handle peanut butter as well. What makes me smile is the total amount that I eat would be the "tester" amount to see if I liked something before surgery.  Rather than licking a heaping kitchen spoon full of peanut butter while I waited for my bread to toast, now I put less than a tsp on the spoon and eat that, nothing else. Maybe not the greatest choice but better than a big bag of chips or a pint of ice cream.  I can also eat beef hamburger. I was told to eat salmon and put it on saltines but just can't get myself to eat the crackers. I am going to stay away from all "white stuff".  Anyways, once again my biggest issue is being scared of food and what to eat. Pre-surgery I ate a lot of salads and steak, spaghetti, pizza, Chinese, take-out and sugary or food high in carbs. I am looking forward to having steak and salad. I am hoping to be able to tolerate salad soon. I know that I have to be brave and just try it.

Like always, my biggest issues revolve around food,  *surprise, surprise*.  Maybe if I felt this way about food before surgery I wouldn't have gotten myself into this situation in the first place.

I haven't started exercising yet. I know I should but I am lazy and have been having major back pain. I do have chronic back pain but this is something different. I normally have lower back pain, which I haven't lately but I get great pains by my left shoulder blade. I can't even sit up when it acts up. I went and made meatballs the other night and it wiped me out and I had to get Homer to finish cooking the meat as I couldn't stand up. I love to shop and I have had to cut a couple of my shopping trips short because of my back. I used to take Advil for the pain but...you know.

Back to the exercising. I have to start. I was thinking about getting a 10 visit pass for the local gym. That way I am not paying for another membership that I will waste money on. I figure that I can go walk on the treadmill and then ride the bike. I can't wait until it gets warm here so I can walk the dogs everyday. I am scared of falling outside and hurting myself.

I don't know if I am losing fast or slow. I was addicted to the scale and I am trying to break myself from that habit. I know that today I will be stepping on it as I am 5 weeks today.

I haven't felt nauseated , puked, got sick or have rejected any foods yet, but I haven't tried too many things. I have been having constipation problem, but I think that I have finally settled that problem too (I am hoping).  

Well, I don't really know what else to write. Going slow with the diet and everything else. Slow and steady wins the race, right???? I sure  hope so. 

Peace

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