poegirl100
Reflections
Jan 18, 2011
I have been reflecting hard this morning on my mental preparations for this surgery. That's good. I needed it. I feel like I am hurtling towards my surgery date now. Only 35 more days. I need to get on top of things.I have especially been thinking about my mantra. Dr. Davis wants each of us to pick a mantra--a little phrase we say to ourselves all day long to combat negative thinking and to promote our well-being. It might sound silly, but I know this works.
Several years ago, we went through a terrible bad phase with one of our teenaged daughters. I have never felt like such a failure in my life! Whenever I would start to bog down with depression and fear and anger and self-loathing, I would chant in my mind: "let go . . . go on" and it helped! I found I could turn off the negative messages in my head and move on.
So I thought about it and I decided that my mantra to help me through my WLS will be: I LOVE MY BODY. To me, this phrase--I LOVE MY BODY--has many levels of meaning. It addresses physical self-image, as well as physical well-being, and not incidentally, hope for the future. I do need to love my body--I need to love it back to HEALTH! I need to quit avoiding looking at myself in mirrors. I need to quit saying mean things to myself when I do see myself in the mirror! And I need to believe that my body is worthy of love again.
You know, I would have never treated my children's bodies as badly as I've treated my own. In fact, it would probably be considered abuse if I did. I need to recognize the damage I've done to myself, sure, but I don't need to dwell on it. I can't change the past, but I can move forward. So, I LOVE MY BODY. You're going to hear that a lot from me over the next few months. It's a good message for all of us.
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About Me
Cibolo, TX
Location
24.1
BMI
Surgery
02/22/2011
Surgery Date
Jun 30, 2009
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