Food Panic!

Aug 19, 2012

I sincerely hope not.  But I'm frightened that that's what I'm doing.  Today, i went to the grocery store because I had a "sweet tooth" and I ended up spending nearly $50 on JUNK!  okay, not junk, I did get milk, two newspapers and two 4-packs of Muscle Milk, so I spent HALF of my $50 on junk . Oh, what do I mean by junk, you ask?? they say honesty is the best policy so here goes...

Totinos frozen pizza - 1/4 left staring at me on the plate begging me to eat it
Reese's Pieces - NOT the individual size bag
Oreos - a whole friggin package... Cool Mint, no less!
a single butterfinger
a Big Grab of Cheddar and Sour Cream ruffles
a Big Grab of Sour Cream and Onion lays
a bag of Ritz toasted chips
and lastly....as I hang my head in shame because my mouth was watering the instant I saw them....

candy corn Pumpkins. 

I KNOW!

here's what I'm guessing....psychologically, i'm struggling b/c my pre op is Thursday.  THURSDAY mind.  My weight has been averaging about 238.6 or so, but yesterday I got on the scale and was at 242.6.  BLOODY HELL!  This is not good.  I can't believe it.  and yet what did I do today?? I BOUGHT A BUNCH OF SHIT! (excuse me, but it's true) and it wasn't until after I left the store that I felt awful about what I was doing. 

Do you think it's just a psychological "I have to stop this sort of behavior after Wednesday, so I'll eat whatever I want between now and then."??? 

has anyone else been through this?  

I guess I'll hit the forums and see what I can find there. 

i'm appalled at myself, truth be told, but scolding myself won't do me any good.  it'll just make me feel worse. 

**note** I DID put the pizza slice in foil and in the fridge.  Now...I suppose i'd best go work on my spare bedroom and work off some of these calories. 

*sigh* terrible. 

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