What a week! Surgery, Emotions, Cravings and More!

Sep 12, 2012

Okay, i know blogs are supposed to be "short" so...well, yeah, i'm throwing that out the window, like always! 

So, last wednesday I had my surgery.  Roux En Y by Dr. Joshua Roller.  I was as prepared as I thought I could be, but as I'm sure those of you who have been in my surgical slippers understand, there are some things that sneak up on you. 

it wasn't until I was in pre-op, in my pretty gown, tubes coming out of me like crazy, talking with my Mom that i realized just how scared I was.  Sure, I had some freakout moments Tuesday night, but wednesday was the first time I actually verbalized the "fear" I had that I was maybe making the wrong decision.  My mom assured me that it was absolutely the right decision and that I had done my due diligence and researched and prepared as much as I could. 

To this moment, I'm still not 100% sure, but there's nothing I can do about it now.  I know that hindsight is 20/20 so in 6 or 9 months I can look back at this blog and say "What the heck were you thinking?  OF COURSE it was the right decision!" but right now...there are still a lot of unknowns.

I've not had an emotional breakdown like I thought I would, but I guess part of it has been because I've been bloody busy.  well, sort of.

Oh, wait...yes, I have had a small one.  Thursday morning in the hospital, Vilas, one of the nurses (who was FANTASTIC! as were ALL of my nurses and techs) came in and told me I was behind on my drinking that morning.  She said the other folks who'd had surgery the day before were already on their third round where as I'd just started my second.  i was horrified.  I was already failing at this process.  FAILING!  one day in and I'm already behind?  I couldn't believe it, but....here i was....behind everyone else. So I cried. 

But my surgery was a success!  First, between pre-op and surgery day, i lost 9 lbs.  not too shabby, eh? I was pretty impressed.  And doc said that I had zero complications, that typically SOMETHING unexpected happens, but i was a 97% out of 100 for perfection!  Maybe I should have remembered THAT before I start crying about my drinking failure.

I have 6 incisions, small, about 1 1/4 inch is the longest, but most are about half an inch long.  I did have a scare with high blood pressure.  you know, i was on meds until about two months ago when they were causing breathing problems, so my GP took me off of them.  Then..when I was recovering, my BP just kept CLIMBING!  At one point it was 161 over 111.  WHAT?! that's INSANE high!  Pre surgery, i was running 118/73.  So my surgeon put me back on lisinopril for two weeks.  Speaking of...I need to take my BP.  *pause*

Okay, 147/83, not bad.  :) 

So anyway, then i get released and I go home and what happens?  I think I have to have a BM.  okay, so I go to the bathroom and it's all blood.  Not a little bit.  A LOT.  And it scared the shit out of me!  Seriously! I apologize for the explitive, but it's true!  I had been prepared for the possibility of "streaks of blood" in the feces, but really....it was pure blood.  I called my Mom into the bathroom and said I'm sorry, this is gross, but look.  and I showed her...and she was scared, too.  And so was my dad, and my brother and his fiance!  It was NOT a good experience.  I warn you ALL about it now.  I've got a couple of friends who i've met at the support group meetings that I've talked with regularly and they had no idea either!  but the doctor said it was normal.  if it's NORMAL WARN PEOPLE! 

So, my plan had been to stay at my own home post-surgery was shot to hell.  And guess what!  my parents house was NOT bariatric post-op ready.  For me to spend the first two days post-surgery in a home full of food....yeah, that was TOUGH!  So when I was able to return to MY house, it was easier.  The scents were only those from the dogs and my scentsy.  I was able to mix my banana shake with milk instead of water.  I had my chicken and beef broth at the ready, teas in abundance, not to mention ELEVEN different flavors of Crystal Light.  SF jell-o, SF popsicles, and 5 cases of bottled water. 

I think....I'll split this blog into two b/c there is SO much more going on that i'm mentally tired from even typing what i've typed! 

So, after a week long hiatus, i have returned...with a vengance it seems!  I'm down 8 in a week.  Today was the first day I stayed the same, but it is to be expected.  I have a long WEIGH to go, but am up for the challenge.

In the next chapter:  The Pain, The CT, and My Grandmother's broken hip.  Not to mention MAD PROPS to my family for EVERYTHING they have done for me.  Seriously. MAD MAD props to them.  I'm so blessed to have them as my own.  I thank God to be a part of their family. 

To Be Continued.....

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