Moving in the right direction...

Feb 11, 2013

Well, WLS- in particular Gastric Bypass is not what I expected it to be at all.  I have heard people say many times, you gotta get your head fixed too.  But in no way was I ready for this.  What, you say? Well, my name is Shawnie and I'm addicted to food.This is completely hard.  It is sooo hard to cook separate meals for my family because I find myself grazing and I can't stop. So, today I tried calling around for therapists and I couldn't find a single one whom focuses on eating disorders that wasn't 30 miles away.  Soo, I called the surgeon's office for a referral and am awaiting their phone call now.  I've also heard, "stay off the scale" "don't obsess over the numbers on the scale".  But what do I find myself doing?? Weighing myself everyday and obsessing over the numbers.  From now on, I must stick to weighing myself only on Mondays, this has got to give. 

Buyers remorse has come to haunt me again.  I feel like I'm going to do major harm to myself if I can't get this addiction under control.  I mean its crazy, I've quit alcohol cold turkey, and tobacco (Black N Milds) cold turkey, but absolutely cannot control myself around food and its only been 3 1/2 weeks.  If I can't nip this in the bud, then I am doomed. For my sake, lets hope it is true that the everyone will lose due to the malabsorption.   Please and Thank you Lord.

But anywhoo, my running totals:

Running totals:

1/7- 321

1/14- 311

(1/17- 307, day of surgery)

(1/19- 314, day discharged from hospital)

1/21- 307

1/28-298.8-life is grand

2/4- 299.4

2/11- 293-Yay !! 

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