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5-10-04 Presurgery physical..cardiologist needs to review my EKG...first the HPylori and ulcer..now the cardiologist...the saga continues...

6-2-04 The cardiologist gave the final go ahead..I'm scheduled for next week tuesday..YEAH for me!!!!!
This past weekend my daughter Ashlie graduated from high school and we had a big party. There was 148 people there, it might have been more but I kind of stopped counting..hahahahaha..It was a great party lots and lots of food and Ashlie received some really nice gifts and lots of money. She'll be leaving for college in August..I'm so proud of her..

9-8-04 Well its 3 months today since my surgery. I've lost 68 pounds and am down from a 20/22 to about a 14/16. I of course can't see it. I think i'm still the same size and look the same. However based on what people say I apparently look a lot different and a lot younger. I've had some ups and some downs, a couple weeks ago I had to go to the ER because I had a kidney stone. I'm still not eating like I should. Take for instance yesterday I had about 30 ounces of fluid and 6 crackers with cheese spread. Food upsets my stomach some, and I just have no real appetite. I am however taking my vitamins but I haven't been drinking my liquid protein. I think I'll start back on it tomorrow. I was out of town for a week or so and for whatever reason didn't take it. My daughter is away at college now and doing very well..

10-22-04 Hey everyone..i got 2 emails from people that read my profile i was so excited..i just thought I had this profile out for myself..hahahahah Well i'm down more than 80lbs now. I don't know how much for sure though. I had been weighing every saturday morning, but it was like an obsession I couldn't wait till saturday morning and if the scale didn't say I had lost at least 4-5lbs I would get in a funk. So I haven't weighed in over 2 weeks, but the last time I weighed I was down exactly 80lbs..so its should still be 80lbs and hopefully more. I'm down to a size 12 pants and a large top. The 12's are starting to get loose, I've been to spending over a $100 every week for the past 5 weeks at NY & Co. buying clothes. I really need to stop because I'm still loosing and the things I bought 5 weeks ago I've had to take them up some...but since I don't have any clothes I have to buy something. All is going well for me otherwise. I'm eating more than I have since the surgery. I still haven't dumped though. I've eaten to fast and puked though, I can do that at a drop of a hat. My son and my niece thinks it so funny because I can't puke in the toilet. I just can't get my head down near a toilet, and I can't puke with the lights on. I go in the bathroom turn the lights off and puke in the sink..yeah I'm a little special.but anyway. I need to get more protein in. I was reading my last post and remember that I was supposed to start drinking that darn liquid protein again, but i didn't. I still have the $30 bottle in my fridge from GNC still not open. Now that I'm back at work it justs seem to hard to drink that. I do drink about 6 ounces of 1% milk in the morning with my vitamins. Not that that has anything to do with me not getting any protein but you know I can only do so much. Its like if I drink more than I eat less. Well thats all for now, next week I'm going back to New Orleans to visit my daughter. She's been gone for 2 months now and she's getting a little home sick. Oh I almost forgot, the men are falling out of the woodwork now. Although I haven't come across any that I want to keep though..Soon the right one will come along...soon..Prayerfully very soon..hahahaha Take care all and thanks for reading my profile. I really appreciate it. Feel free to email me anytime..and sorry I don't have a great profile like some of the people..

11/17 Hey everyone what can I say about whats going on. Well I'm down 92lbs and i'm in a size 8 pants and anywhere from a medium to a XL large..those big ole boobs of mine 38DD depending on the shirt and the bra i'm wearing its a toss up on what size i need. I'm still attempting to weigh every 2 weeks..i got in a funk recently because I hadn't weighed in almost 3 weeks and when I did weigh I weighed the same as I did 3 weeks before. So that really upset me. It appears that its time for me to work at the weight loss. I want to get to 145 and I was hoping i would get there with no work but apparently not. I'm not eating like I should. Somedays I don't eat at all, then other days like last night I had 6 of my mothers peanut butter cookies for dinner..yeah I'm really bad. It took me 2 hours to eat them but thats what I ate..I'm going to talk to her about making them with splenda or that splenda/sugar mix they are selling now.. You know how you do things that are wrong but in your mind you try to make them right..yeah well as I was eating the cookies I kept thinking "peanuts are a great source for protein"..hahahaha well the rest of the week its salads now..Oh I almost forgot I was in New Orleans visiting my daughter a couple weeks ago and the variety of men that hit on me now is very different than 90lbs ago. Young men, white men, model looking men..its really funny. I was at the mall the otherday with my niece and this really cute guy was walking out and I mean he was FINE and he was looking towards me. Yeah I just assumed he was looking towards me but as someone else...then my niece is like "why didn't you say something"..it never dawned on me that this beautiful man was looking at me..its just a whole new experience..

12-2 Hello all, well i'm down to 157 almost a member of the century club. I'm hoping to become a member by 12-14 which is when i have my 6 month check up. The weight has slowed down so much. I can eat a little more now..but the horrible thing about that is I can eat a small piece of cake or some peanut brittle and feel fine..oh but let me eat a wingette you know not a whole wing but those pieces that they use for like hot wings oh i can eat one of those over a 10 minute period and have to go and puke it up..its horrible..i'm like i'm going to ruin this for myself..i love the sweets i can't eat a lot of them now but i know as time goes on i'll be able to eat more and more of them..i've started to keep those little carrots and celery in my fridge at all times now so if i feel the need to chew on something i go and grab that..or i eat sunflower seeds which aren't to good but i look at it as a little protein..i just have to many problems with meat..whenever i eat it i have the hardest time keeping it down..it always feels like a brick in my stomach and i just go and puke it up to feel better...oh i know what i wanted to recommend to people..if you haven't tried the minute maid light tropical mango you are missing out..a 12 ounce can is 10 calories, and its the BOMB i just love it..my son even drinks it..although he likes the guava citrus better, they also have a rasberry passion and a lemonade..but the tropical mango is my favorite..i let this lady that works with me taste it and she said she liked it but could tell it was a light drink..i told her she was crazy because i CANNOT tell its a light drink...i keep saying i'm going to write minute maid to tell them i know they are putting the regular in the light can..hahahahaha..another good thing is the tang sugar free..i love that but its hard to find..I also have to tell you guys what happened to me 2 days ago. i went out walking with a co-worker and a city bus drove past and once it got a little past me they honked..well i know a couple bus drivers so i figured it was someone i knew but i didn't get a chance to see them..well a couple minutes later a goodfriend of mine called saying it was her but that she didn't recognize that it was me until she got right up on me..keep in mind i've known this women since the 6th grade and just saw her in the middle of october but she claims she didn't recognize me..then later that night i was at a Bucks game and saw this guy that i've known for about 6 years and he looked right at me and turned the otherway..so i walked up the stairs towards him and he looked at me again and turned away..i was really about to act a fool with him..hahahaha i said his name and he looked at me like he didn't even know who i was..then he blinked his eyes and said "Kellie?"..I was like yes you nutt...i guess i have to start believing people when they say i look different..i've come to the conclusion that a 100lbs ago i didn't really see myself, that i must have been way bigger then the person i saw in the mirror..hahaha yeah thats it..before i had a problem with seeing myself the way i really looked..hahahaha... well i'll post again after my 6 month check up..Prayerfully my blood work won't be to bad...PRAYERFULLY!!!



12-15 Hey all I had my 6 month check up with Dr. Siverhus. As an FYI he is FINE. He's so handsome, so if any of you know his wife tell her she needs to leave him and when she does please let me know cause he's mine..hahahaha Well anyway my blood work was ok. He stated that something was not where it was supposed to be so I need to start taking Iron pills twice a day. I have a hard enough time remember to take my centrum multi vitamin and my b12, now i have to add another pill. Oh well the cost of beauty..hahahaha.. All is well with me my daughter came back from college yesterday for Christmas break. I'm down to 156..yeah only 1 pound lower than the last time..I'm really upset about that too. I wanted to get to 145 before the weightloss stopped..Yeah I have to work on it now..dang..I know my body knows i'm lazy..hahahaha Oh the dietician fussed at me about what I eat. She asked what I had to eat the day before and for breakfast I had a nature valley granola bar, for lunch I had chicken noodle soup, or actually the broth from the chicken noodle soup. For dinner I had a wingette, I also drank about 45 ounces of fluid that day. Yeah so the dietician stated "i have to mark inadequate on everything". She just didn't understand I thought I had done really well the day before. But anyway I'm going to continue to try harder.

1-4-05 Hey everyone. well what can I share..well i weighed on Crhistmas day and I weighed 152 i'm down 100lbs and an official member of the century club. My size 8 pants I put on today feel a little loose. I'm eating about 3 small meals a day..however they are very small meals and don't nearly get me enough protein or nutrients that I should be getting but I can only do so much. I was off work from December 23rd till January 3rd and I swear I went out every night from December 26th till January 1st. I mean I was out every night, my daughter was home from college and kept saying "i don't know who this new chick is but she better send my momma home"..lol she was cracking me up. Well on the men front I tell you this new Kellie has more men in her life actually more men trying to be in her life than ever. Even my ex, and I'm like I didn't want you 100lbs ago what makes you think I want you now..but anyway. I just want to tell any pre-ops to be prepared for a change. Its not a bad change but a change indeed. For me its been a hard adjustment with clothes mainly and the attention from men..i know that sounds kind of crazy but the attention from men is truelly getting out of hand..and for the clothes I had to be just about dragged out of Lane Bryant, and everytime I walk past there I see something and think "they didn't have clothes like that when I shopped there" of course they did but you know..anyway New York & Co is my new best friend still..they are bout to take all my little money but at least I look good..hahahaha its a wonderful thing having all new clothes..I don't own anything thats more than 2 months old..Blessings to you all this New Year may it bring you all that you need....

1-10-05 just one quick update..i was shopping at New York & Co. (of course) this past saturday and I bought these pink pants..guess what size they are..i can't believe it myself..they're a size 2 yes a size 2..my niece told me i'll be shopping in the kids department soon..hahahahahahaha..the pants actually run kind of big so i think they are about the size of a 4 or 6..but the tag says 2....

2-9-05 Hey all, i'm down to 144lb my goal weight was 145 but i missed it and didn't even know it..all is going well for me..i'm still not eating like i should..and I also puke about 4-5 times per week..I decide i'm going to eat something and I eat it to fast..I need to slow down..i have 1 man in my life now..hahahaha about a month or so ago i had about 15..i gave them all up for the greatest guy..now he justs needs to realize i'm the greatest girl...hahahahahaha..my best friends sister Lady just had the surgery about 2 weeks ago..she was so pleased with my outcome and had been attempting to loose weight for a while and was having some co-morbidity issues and decided this was for her. She actually even used my surgeon and my niece is makign her appointment today..I think Dr. Siverhus needs to be paying me a referral fee..hahahahaha Alright thats it..Prayerfully I'll be able to post in a month or so that I'm engaged..Prayerfully that is!!

2-25-05 Hello All my niece is an official member of AMOS her profile name is Phat Diva..she has started on her journey to becoming a looser too..Things are goign well for me..still haven't gotten that ring but I know its on the way..As for eating I'm eating a little better..well I'm eating..I ate a chicken wing for dinner last night..the night before i had some chips and dip..hahahah yeah i'm really bad..however David fussed at me enough for everyone..He's just the greatest guy..i told him if his head starts spinnign and he turns into someone else i'm dropping him like a hot potatoe..hahahahaha My hair isn't shedding as much as it was, which is great..i think i've settled in about a size 4 or 6..i do have a couple pairs of 2's though but i think they run big..I would really like to get a thigh lift and a TT, and even my breasts lifted..but i'm scarred..the RNY has been such a Blessing its like i think if i go to get PS something bad might happen..you know how sometimes we just get greedy..well thats what i'm thinking PS is right now..it would be me being greedy...so who knows..David tries to ease my insecurity about PS..but who knows..anyway..Take care everyone..if you think I can offer any assistance please feel free to contact me..

3-3-05 Hi all, I weighed yesterday and i'm down to....get this 136..OMG can you believe it..i actually thought I was gaining weight since i've been eating a little more..but apparently not..anyway things are going well..hey i need to share something on my profile..I didn't want to put this on the message board because I think some people will be offended but to me its just a reality that we need to come to..on the board yesterday a PreOp patient posted had anyone gotten any comments from men in their lives about them not needing WLS, that the man/woman commented that they liked your "thickness" or something like that..but my issue with the post was in the post she made a comment that she was currently weighing 332lbs but that she carried it well. Okay first before I start my niece Nickie (Phat Diva) stated that skinny Kellie is getting a little full of herself. I however don't think i'm getting full of myself I'm just being realistic. Okay there is no way that any woman can carry 332lbs well. I was 252lbs and I looked like a moose. If you weigh anything over 200lbs..shoot anything over 175lb and are 5'5" or of average height you need to find one of your friends or someone who's the same height as you and weighs about 175lb and take a picture next to them. Take it from the front, from the side and from the rear. Look at the two of you and then you decide if you really "carry 332lbs well"...Big girls we are lying to ourselves. Nickie said to me that when I weighed 252lbs I would buy an outfit and really think I was cute in it...Yes I will admit that I would get dressed up and think I looked good. Yes I looked good for a big girl, but no I didn't carry 252lb well. Come on people, all that weight isn't healthy. We have to much to live for. Whether its our children, our parents, our friends, or just ourselves. NO ONE CARRIES 332LBS WELL. It isn't healthy and we really need to check ourselves on this. If this has offended anyone, I'm sorry. Yes you may look at me and say "oh she weighs 136lbs and doesn't understand". Actually I do, its just that I'm on the otherside and I may not be able to see the skinny Kellie yet (although she is getting clearer and clearer in the mirror to me) but I can most assuredly see the difference when looking at the pictures. Thats why I'm suggesting if you are currently considered Morbidly Obese and you think you carry it well. Please take a picture standing next to someone of the same height that isn't considered morbidly obese and see if you still think you carry it well. Blessings to you all on your weight lose journey.

3-16-05 Hey all I had a meet and greet at my house saturday so my friends here in milwaukee and my family who hadn't met my wonderful man could do so. The party went very well and everyone loved the food..except my crazy niece and nephew they didn't like the mac & cheese but others did. Nickie stated it wasn't like i normally make it..oh well..Nickie (Phat Diva) found out that she was approved today for her surgery. Its scheduled for April 19th so please Pray for a successful painless surgery for her. As for me, I'm eating food!!! YEAH for me, yesterday I ate an entire Junior Bacon Cheeseburger from Wendys..well not an entire one..i took off the bottom bread and about a 1/3 of the top bread..but i ate the entire part that was left..hahahaha it took me about 20-30 minutes and it really didn't feel good when i was done. I could have actually gone in the bathroom and puked it up..however I'm so tired now I know its from me not eating properly and not getting any protein or nutrients in. So I guess I'll have to get used to the weird feeling I get after eating. Today for breakfast I ate an apple pie from McDonalds..hahahaha yeah i'm bad and a cup of sf hot cocoa w/chai tea. For lunch I had part of a turkey sandwhich from Potbellys..i'm going out for dinner to this steak house so for dinner i know i'm having the chicken noodle soup and i'll eat a little bit of the steak..i'm going to do better though..i have to get some energy..i'm so tired during the day and by the time i get in the bed at 10pm i can just barely pray without falling asleep..i keep thinking I need to say evening Prayers instead of night Prayers cause i'm so tired by 9pm..oh well..Blessings to you all in your journeys!!

3-29-05 Hello All, I weighed this past Easter Weekend and I'm down to 134lbs. Yesterday for lunch I ate about 3/4 cup of food which consisted of some mac & cheese, dressing, and some greens..oohh it was so good. It didn't hurt or anything.. I think i'm just going to eat soft foods like that. When I eat meats my stomach normally hurts so i'm going to just eat soft for a while...I hope everyone had a Blessed Easter. I don't have anything else to update..you'll know i'm waiting to post i'm engaged..Yeah that nutt David told me that when my daughter comes back from college if he comes up to milwaukee he won't be sleeping in my bedroom unless I put a ring on his finger...lol..he's so crazy..so you know i had to fuss that he better get on the ball and go see Kyla (the lady at the jeweler) before he won't be able to sleep with me anywhere let alone if my daughter or son are there..Pray for the Best!!

4-10-05 Well where shall I start. Today my daughter turned 19 yeah for her. Last tuesday my niece Phat Diva had her surgery and is now an official looser. She got out of the hospital thursday and was doing really well until today. She we were out shopping (yes she wanted to get out and walk and there was no talking her out of it) so we went out and she was fine. She and her cousin dropped me off to meet a friend for dinner and she called me 5 minutes later stating she was in horrible pain. I'm now at her house and she was pooping out blood and puking blood too. I have a call into the doctor and am waiting for him to call me back. On a different note "I HAVE A GOOD MAN"..I've waited over 36 years to say that and I can say that loud and proud. David loves me and puts up with all of my insecurities and issues that I have. Its strange having lost all of this weight and now I have such a great man in my life I seem to question why now, why do I have such a great man in my life. Why do I have a man in my life that loves me so much. Well I don't know but I thank the Lord each and everyday for him. Last week tuesday I caught the train down to chicago because we were going to go and see Madea Goes to Jail. (first let me tell you if you haven't gone to see the play if its playing within a 3 hour drive/radius of your home you have got to go it is so good). So anyway I had told David what I was wearing that evening which included a pair of dress boots and he was like its really warm you need to wear something else. I was at the hospital all that day with Nickie (phat diva) and didn't have time to go and buy a different pair of shoes or figure out a different outfit so I told him the boots would be fine. But of course I was a little in my feelings thinking this man wasn't going to be happy with my outfit. Then he picked me up from the train station and we were driving to his house and he was like are you going to drive the cadillac, and i'm like NO we are in chicago you drive when we're in chicago. So anyone else would have figured out that something was up..oh no not me. So anyway we get to the house and I say what time to I need to be dressed and he says 7pm. So I take my shower and get dressed and do my hair. So he's like okay lets go, we walk out the house and parked in front of the house is a white limousine. Okay now I am one to draw attention to myself, I can be the life of the party. I go to parties and lots of people are drawn to me however I don't like attention drawn to me by other people. So i'm all embarrassed that theirs a limo outside the house and I'm like please please don't let this limo be for us. The kids in the neighborhood were out looking at the car some of the people in the houses were looking out the window. I stood behind David and put my face in his back saying "please we can take the truck I don't mind walking the long walk from the parking structure" He's so sweet he was like no we're going to the Theatre in style, I'm taking you on a date. I swear I just love this man, I am so very thankful for the Blessing of David. I Pray all could have the joy that he gives me. Blessings to you all!!!

4-27-05 I weighed the otherday and i'm now down to 130lbs..I've been summoned to go see the dietician, she's going to help me figure out what to eat so that i can maintain my current weight..i would like to stay 130-135..no more no less..oh and Phat Diva ended up being admitted to the hospital. She had a blood clot and lost some blood...she's doing well and will be returning to work next monday..

5-9-05..This message is mostly for pre-ops..I just want you guys to know and understand that this road is not an easy way out..More than likely when you tell some of your family and friends they'll say the surgery is the easy way out..that you're not trying hard enough..Please if you don't believe anything believe that this surgery is in no way easy..for one any surgery isn't easy..and two, know that the changes that you will go through mentally far outweigh the changes you will go through physically..You may not realize how much you depend on food..we sometimes use food to soothe our pains, we use food to hide behind..we use food as a partner..well after this surgery..where you may have been able to use food to dull whatever pain or trials you are going through you won't be able to use food that way anymore...and truelly the satisfaction you get from food now..you won't get that satisfaction anymore or at least for a while..I know people look at my pictures and at me and think WOW she's doing so great..she's had much success, and physically I have..but mentally is another story..i am now 11 months out and yes i'm in a size 2 pants..however i look down at myself and i still see size 20 kellie..theres a picture on my picture trail its of me and 3 other ladies it was taken about 3 weeks ago at a baby shower here at work..one of the ladies thats standing next to me is a co-worker and we hang out together and shop together so I know that when we buy pants that I buy a smaller size then she does..but this is going to sound stupid but i would buy a 2 but think in my head its a big size 2 and Sonia could get a big size 2 also..i just never really thought that i was smaller than she was..well anyway someone sent me the picture from the baby shower and i was like "wow i'm smaller than Sonia"..everyone else knew this already but until I saw it on a picture I didn't believe it..and to be honest I only believe it when I'm looking at the picture...I'm saying all this because I don't want anyone to go ahead and have surgery thinking this is going to be so easy...it is a struggle and at times overwhelming..it will get better..but please don't go into this journey thinking its an easy way out...Blessings to you all on your journey..

6-17-05 Well I had my 12 month check up on Monday. Dr. Siverhus was cute as ever. He said my blood work looked good, however my iron is lower than it was at my 6 month. Which doesn't make since to me because at my 6 month I wasn't taking Iron pills. Well anyway he told me to take the iron pills 2 twice a day. I'm of course not doing what he told me to do, I'm taking 2 once a day. I take my vitamins in the morning, I can't remember to take the iron later in the day again. Don't tell him though..lol..I have my appt with the PS monday for a TT which Dr. Siverhus said we'll have to discuss it, that I have to come back and see him in a month to make sure I haven't lost anymore weight. I told him he better help me get my tummy tuck it doesn't matter if i've lost more weight. My tummy is out of control. It is not attracctive..lol..well anyway Blessings to you all on your journeys!!! oh at my 12 month i'm down to 124.8lbs

7-7-05 Hey all i've waited to post this thinking in my mind if I didn't post it, then it wouldn't be true..well it is true..David and I have broken up..and that is all i'm going to say on that. As for my weightloss journey..well I weighed at my mothers yesterday and the scale said 122lb..i have a doctors appt this week with my bariatric surgeon. he told me last month i had to come back to see him and he would say yes or no on me getting a tummy tuck in august. he wants to see me maintaining my current weight..i think i'm going to put some quarters in my pocket or some weights on under my pants cause i've lost 2 more pounds and i'm on my period so i know i've lost more than 2 because i always weigh more during that time of the month..i can eat a lot more than i used to..of course i'm not eating the right things..although i have that chocolate unjury powder and i have a scoop of that with a half pint 2% milk each morning..then through the day..well lets see sometimes i'll do a slice of chedder with 6 crackers for lunch or i'll have some soup..for dinner..i'll eat maybe a chicken wing..oh but don't forget the mini snicker or mini heath bar i'll grab off of someones desk...yeah i'm really bad..but mad cause i'm still loosing weight...again i know i've said this before..you preops if people tell you this is the easy way out..you give them my number and tell them they can kiss my high yellow ace in addition to yours...lol Blessings to you all on your weightloss journey!!

8-28-05 Hello all I haven't posted in a while. I've been layed off now and went on a rode trip. I'm back from my rode trip I was gone for about 3 weeks. When we left first we went to New Orleans for a couple days to pick up my daughters things that were in storage. Then we dropped my daughter off at college. After that we stayed in Batesville, MS with my grandparents then we stayed in Memphis with Ms. Melanie for a little while. We had a great time in Memphis we met Melanie's kids, and her parents. They were all very nice and welcoming. I even got to see Elvis. He parked right next to me at the visitor center....lol. While I was in Memphis Melanie and I went to Beale Street on the day when all the bikers are there, and yes I got on the back of a strange mans motorcycle. I had Melanie take a picture of his license plate just in case he didn't bring me back..lol When we left Memphis we went to Atlanta and Phat Diva flew down to meet us. We went out to Visions friday, Phat Diva has the bubbly guts and had to leave. I was a big gurl as long as I could be and stayed there by myself. Saturday we went to this club called Grown Folks. It was a lot different than any club in milwaukee. All or about 85% of the men were dancing and they were playing like disco or 80's music. The crowd was all excited you would have thought they were playing some crunk music as hype as the crowd was. We enjoyed it very much. Well while we were in Atlanta the Army nice enough to be having a conference and I met a man..YIPPEE!!! He's based in Puerto Rico and I think I'm going to visit him. You know I'm unemployed so I figured I'de travel as much as I can for now. When we left Atlanta we went back to New Orleans. While in New Orleans Kelli Jo came and met us for lunch. Its so funny all 3 of us ordered more than we could really eat..lol...well Hurrican Katrina is on her way to New Orleans and we left so that Donovan and I could have one day at home prior to him starting high school. Well I dont know how much I weigh right now but i'm thinking its between 120-125 thats seems to be where i've settled. I have to go see Dr. Siverhus wednesday. He wants to make sure i'm not loosing anymore weight. Blessings to you all on your journey.

9-28-05 Hey ya'll I've of course been traveling since the last time I updated. I did indeed go to Puerto Rico it was really a beautiful place. I even got to go Wal-Mart, ya'll know I'm crazy and love to shop. We went out one day to Old San Juan which is like a touristy kind of place with a bunch of shops. Once I came back I was home for about a week then I went to Philly to visit Courtney and attend the Philly meet and greet. Japii was kind enough to pick me up from the airport. He gave me his nickel tour of Philly and even took me on a picnic behind the art museum in the azelia garden. He was so sweet, had it been me I would have picked someone up and dropped them off....lol..no I wouldn't have I would have given the nickel tour also, but no picnic a drink maybe but no picnic. After hanging out with Japii I walked about 2 miles down chestnut street and picked up a white man. Yes I did, I wanted a martini and he was coming out of a bar and I asked him where could I get a good martini and he was like "around the corner at the blue martini" I said thanks and then he said "i'll join you".. well ya'll know i'm not a big gurl and having anyone come and sit and talk to at a bar was great to me. His name was Andrew he was really funny, however he was so married. He cracked me up, he was buying those martinis and excused himself to the bathroom and somehow came back without his wedding ring on. Now, let me explain me a little for those who don't know me. I am all about honesty between a man and a woman. There might have been a time in my life where I wouldn't have cared about him having a wife. I of course don't remember that time but, i'm of the be honest if you're married be honest. This man really thought he was going to get me drunk and I was going to go to his hotel room with him. Yes, he did get me drunk, however I wasn't going to any married mans hotel room, actually I wasn't going to any man that I just met hotel room after drinking. But I did have a great time sitting at the bar laughing and spending his money. I left there and caught a cab to South street and went to Ishkabibles. They have the BEST Chicken Cheesesteak in Philly. OMG you know I had 3 martinis before I got that sandwhich so I was able to eat about 1/4 of the sandwhich bread and all. You know with alcohal in my stomach I felt no pain..lol...The next day Courtney came and picked me up and I spent the next couple days with her and her children. Let me tell you about Courtney, if you meet her she might mention her son is autistic. DON'T BELIEVE HER. I spent the weekend with Khary her son and he ain't no more autistic than me....lol... Saturday was the meet and greet at the King of Prussia mall we met at the Cheesecake Factory. Prior to eating Cossette (I think that was her name) Madame Rodrigues, and her husband and a friend of Cossette went next door to some asian themed restaurant and had a drink. We had such a good time, Cossette can't handle her liquor and had to leave blaiming it on her daughter..lol..but we had a good time anyway. I'm back at home now and just waiting on my next trip. I'm thinking of taking my mother to Las Vegas for her 70th birthday next month. However, when I told her she was like "you can just give me money"..you know I love my mother but she works my last nerve sometimes..and of course I plan on going to Memphis for that meet and greet. I would like to go back to Philly and get my party on I didn't get to get my party on like I wanted to but maybe next time. Courtney is still early out, so I'll give her a couple months then maybe revisit. As for my weight, well i'm staying steady at 120lbs. I actually bought a scale it was just $5.99 at wal-mart so I don't know how acurate it is. It keeps saying 118-120 but I think its a little wrong and I'm 120-122 at least thats what I believe. Its weird I still can't really see that I'm skinny, I look down and all I can see is my big ole stomach. However, when I put on a size 2 pants from New York & Co and I have to wear a belt to keep them on I just kind of accept that I'm skinny. I can eat so much now, a month or so ago I could sit down and eat 2 wingette and I was full. Now I can eat 4 wingette, I'm more so a grazer. I don't eat 3 meals a day. I eat about 6 small snacks a day, I also don't make the right food choices. Its really hard, you know you grow up eating this and that not thinking this is a good choice of food item. With the surgery you don't all the sudden know how to make the right choices, oh but you know when you make the wrong ones. I stay about 900 calories a day in food. Somedays I make all the right choices but somedays I make all the wrong food choices. Well thats all for now Blessings to you all for a successful journey!!

12-12-05 Where has the time gone? My friend just said something to me about my profile and I thought "when was the last time i've updated?" Let me tell you I had no idea that it was 3 months ago. Well what has been going on in my life. My weight is a little up, I'm so mortified by this. I was at the doctor the otherday and I weighed 127lbs or actually almost 128lbs. Now I know somebody is reading this saying "skinny b"..well you may say that but believe me I still don't feel that way. I'm doing Yoga 5 days a week, so hopefully i'll get back down to 122lbs. I'm trying to eat better each day. I try to have a salad and I drink milk with my vitamins. I don't do any of those protein shakes. But when I feel like eating something sweet I have a half of a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich. When I want something cold I mix up a smoothie with fruit, ice, and juice. Can't breakdown and add that nasty protein though. I'm currently unemployed, you know I got laid off in August and traveled and shopped as much as I could. Then the Lord truelly Blessed me with job. I interviewed at a place and was hired, however I was let go almost a month later. Yeah it was a Blessing, it brought some money in the door however it was just a stepping stone. I know my Lord has bigger and better plans for me. As for my love life, well I have a friend. His name is Terence, he's actually in the army and will be back from Iraq in February. Please Pray for the best for us. You know how it is, you believe or feel something but you just don't know what the future holds for you. Blessings to you all on your journeys!!! Oh I almost forgot Merry Christmas!!!!!

4-13-06 Hey everyone, I haven't updated in such a long time. I feel so bad, well actually I don't...lol..well what has gone on lately. Well I started my new job which I LOVE!!!! I mean the people are so nice, the pay is great, the time off is great. I mean I am truelly Blessed with this position. Now on the weight front, well I've been gaining weight. Its crazy, I know 2 years ago I would be happy to be weighing what I weigh now "130lbs" however. I was down to like 118lb and its like with every pound I feel myself going back to 252. Also, everyone and I mean everyone seems to go out of there way to make a comment about my current weight. Not bad comments, oh no. They are all saying "oh you look so good now since you've put on some weight". Look I know i've gained weight and its depressing me you don't have to comment on it though. I tell you, the mental part of this whole weight lose journey is the pits. Be Blessed everyone, also please feel free to contact me if you have any questions. I'm not the best person to get the right answers from, but I will give you the truth that I have experienced.

6-8-06 2 years today...Two years today. Well what can I say about my journey so far. I have truelly been Blessed not because of the surgery I have just been Blessed by our Lord. I have met some great people, have made some great friends, and I’ll be a bridesmaid for the first time in my life this summer..lol..ok now on to the journey..I have had highs and lows, what I can say to you preops or those thinking about having surgery is this. Don’t go into this surgery thinking its going to solve all of your issues. If your husband/wife/significant other doesn’t treat you right now. Please believe he/she won’t treat you right because of this surgery. If you are making the wrong food choices now, Please believe this surgery won’t cure that. In the beginning yes you won’t be able to eat like you had. But just like with everything as time goes you learn again to tolerate things that you may not have been able to in the beginning. I don’t say this to discourage you, I say this to prepare you. Don’t go into this thinking its easy, its not. You have to make decisions about what you need to do. In the beginning for me it was so easy to loose weight. But I wasn’t eating, shoot if I would have not eaten without the surgery I would have lost the weight then. However, now I’m 2 years out I can eat a WHOLE lot more than I could a year ago and it shows. I’ve been gaining weight, in the last 5 months I’ve gained about 10-15lbs. As for if I would have this surgery again in a heart beat. However I know how to retrain myself in making food choices..this is a new life people..its not easy..you will fail at somethings, and you will succeed in others. It’s a journey and you will make of it what you want..it wont make you…Be Blessed!!!

9-28-06 Well I looked at my profile and see that I haven't posted in a while. Whats new in my life/journey. Well I can eat woohoo!!! If you read my profile just after surgery I couldnt' really eat for about the first 12 months just about. Oh but I can eat now, not like I could prior to surgery but I can eat. I've packed on some weight which really scares me. I'm up to 138lbs, I know to some people that doesn't seem like anything. But being previously obese gaining any weight is scarry. I see myself waking up one day and being 252lb. Prayerfully that won't happen but that doesn't stop it from being a fear. Be Blessed everyone!!!

2-6-07 Well I see that I haven't updated my profile again for a while. I am on BAF though, not that that excuses me from updating my profile. Well things are going along. I'm still packing on the weight. My friend asked me how am I gaining when I don't eat that much. Who knows, but I have gained weight. I'm between 140-145. I'm Prayerful that I don't go over 145. I'm also out of my size 2's which really kill me..I was so proud of my size 2's..now i'm in a 4. I know to some that may sound stupid. But that is just the way it is. I'll be happy when it gets warm so I can get back out and be active. I dont' really exercise but I do walk a lot when its warm outside..and right now its cold. The temp has been below 0 and the wind chill has been like a negative 10 or something..

5-15-07 Well how is everyone doing. I Pray well. What is going on in the life of me..lol..Well I went in for my 3 year exam early because I had been so very tired. All my blood work came back okay, I guess I was just tired of waiting for warm weather or something who knows. He did say my iron could have been better, and that I have to come back to see him in 6 months. Dr. Siverhus is still a hottie..man..I however am no longer waiting for his wife to leave him..lol..I have a great man in my life..he is such a nutt...he was apparently looking at my picture trail recently and texted me telling me "you are a hot babe! Skinney but not boney, you have a skinny thick thing going on look"...lol...yeah he's a nutt..To any pre ops that are reading my profile or looking at my pictures..know that this is a journey..its easy at times and hard at other times..The surgery doesn't magically cure all of your bad eating habits. In the beginning when its hard to eat make an effort to work on your bad eating habits..if sweets was your down fall prior to surgery know that after surgery they can still be your downfall. Use all of what is presented to you to help you. Use the message board, go to your surgeons group meetings. Use all that is offered to assist you in this journey....Be Blessed!!!

5-14-08 OMG its been a year since I've updated my profile..well what can i say..next month I will be 4 years out..eating, well grazing is so easy now..in the beginning it was so easy to loose the weight..now i have to watch it..daily..it is a journey and in no way is this an easy way out..in the beginning while your new tummy is learning what it can handle its easy..but once you get a couple years out and you can eat anything..if you haven't learned to control that eating that weight will come back...i was down to 118lbs..and now i am 152lb..some may think wow thats so skinny..but being down to 118 and getting up to 152lbs so quickly is scary..i have a gym membership and its not going to a total waste..i love the treadmill..i have a $30 mp3 player from walmart and i go and do my hour and it passes quickly..i'm happy the summer is coming soon..the winter is just a time to pack on pounds sitting around.. Allan and I bought a house last September..we aren't married though..who knows if we will get married..everyone seems to think we will..but i'll believe it happens..lol..ok back to my WLS journey..if you have any questions please feel free to contact me..i can't say that i will tell you the right thing..but i will tell you what my experience has been..please know that my experience is my experience..just because so and so, or just because i did this or that doesn't mean that you will too..i didn't get my eating in order over those early years..but know that I am Praying that you do..Be Blessed!!!