It's just one of THOSE days...

I hate THESE days!!! The ones where you hear a constant whisper in your ear that you are going to fail at WLS, that you are still FAT, that cute clothes look stupid on you, and that everything your eating is WRONG! I'm having one of THOSE days! I almost started to cry right in line at Saladworks because I was mad I ordered a wrap. "All the carbs" I thought!! "You'll never reach goal eating like this!" Then I started to feel irrational which lead to a deeper depression. I ended up opening the wrap and eating only the lettuce and turkey. I threw out the cheese, tomatoes, and wrap. I literally felt like an obese anorexic if there is such a thing. It's like I went from having no control over my eating to TOO much control over it. Some days I think I am doing great, others I feel like I am eating too much, then I have days when I feel I am not eating enough. Yet every day I eat about the same. Now I am sitting here on the brink of tears chugging some crystal light like it's a tall cold one!! TMI: But on top off all this, my stinking period is over a week late. So I'm stressing about that. Common sense is telling me to calm down because I am never on time with it; but because I am having a pity party day I'm thinking, "You're probably pregnant and now you will stop loosing and FAIL!!" I guess I just need a big virtual hug!! Please, please tell me that I am not the ONLY one that has these types of days. Dawn

Dawn, Frist of all this is for you ~*~*~*~*~* BIG HUG *~*~*~*~*~ ! Next, OMG, I feel like that almost every other day! I don't eat because I am afraid I will make the wrong choice, then when I do eat, I am afraid I made the wrong choice. Also, I am so afraid that I will Fail and that I will be let my family and friends down, and myself down! You are not alone. Big Hug, Mel

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Dawn}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Cut yourself a bit of slack babygirl. You are doing terrific. If anything you don't eat enough You just are suffering from a bad case of raging hormones. Your period will come and then you'll feel better. Now have a protein shake and take a bubble bath. You need to do things that make you feel good when you start hearing those wicked voices in your head Remember we love you! Ronna

That is exactly why I took my mental breather week!! I was feeling so consumed and overwhelmed by everything that I just needed to step back and reflect on how far I have come!!! You are doing great, don't forget that!! so here is that ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~HUG~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ you were wanting!! Take a breather and go swim! Steph

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((BIG HUG))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Dawn, I totally have the little devil on my shoulder whispering bad self-talk in my head every other day. I have told other people too that I am more obsessed with food now than I ever was MO. I've also gotten sick at a restaurant and as I knelt on the bathroom floor ing, I thought...these girls are all going to go back to their tables and tell their companions, "there was a total bulemic girl barfing in there!" And sometimes I think I know what it feels like to be bulemic or anorexic when 3 in the afternoon comes by and I realize all I had all day was a piece of apple or cheese!! I think this is normal and it is great that we all have each other to talk to so we realize we're not turning into complete loons! I bet your hormones are raging and you will get your period any time now. Feel better and have a much better night than you did day!! Beth

Dawn, give yourself a break. You are doing great. I felt the same way yesterday, just not depressed about it. I had eaten 1 piece of buffalo chicken Wednesday, and then yesterday at lunch I ate 1 KFC chicken strip. Thank heaven the chicken strip didn't go down well. Now I won't try that again. I usually make good choices, but sometimes we have to vary what we eat. I felt last night like I had probably gained weight, and then when I weighed this morning, I had lost 1.4 lbs. in a day for some strange reason! Keep up the good work. You look great. Also, remember, nobody's perfect except God. Karla

Aww, Sweetie..... {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I would venture to guess that we have ALL had days like this! Maybe even weeks like this! You are doing so wonderfully on your journey! You are being featured in a gym newsletter and everything, right? They would not do that with someone who is failing! And, when you think about it...the utter despair you are feeling now REEKS of....**PMS**! I am sure that is why you are feeling so crummy. But...here is the thing...you are ALLOWED to feel crummy! Have a big pity party if you want. It is okay! We are only human. Don't beat yourself up, Chickie. You are absolutely gorgeous and you are doing fabulously!! Love and hugs, Jersey Mom

Dawn~ {{{{{{{{{{{{{{hug}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hug}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} YOu did the right thing by coming to the board and posting...we are all here for you and for each other. Take time for yourself before you drive yourself crazy. If you stress over the period the longer its gong to take to come and then you really are going to go crazy. Pleazzzzzzzzzzzzz take time for your self if its only to get away in the car and listen to the radio and write in a journal or get a pedicure or just get away. I think I can really speak for everyne here we love you tooo much to let you get into this depression...cheer up and here is a cold one for you If you ever need to talk email me and I will give you my digits...i have an awesome ear that listens and i love to talk- Take care, Tina xxooxxooxxoo

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Hope this helps... I am not depressed just stressed. Hope you have a better day! ~~hugs and well wishes~~ Chris

~~~~HUGS~~~~ Hon, you know Im right there with you. Im going thru it myself today and refusing to eat dinner. I feel like suck a fat cow. Like I ate horrible today. (truth is I had a protein shake for breakfast and 4 crackers w/ chicken salad for lunch) I know deep down that it wasnt alot and it wont make me fat again. But something in my head tells me Im a failure for eating a cracker and mayo in the chicken salad. Cheer up hon, you have come so far and Im so proud of you. Sorry I missed your call, I was in the ER with my grandmother. Miss ya......... hugs, kristi