Ok People!

I think it is finally starting! I think I am beginning to attract the opposite sex! I had some really freaky interactions today at work. First it was like 5:30 in the morning and I'm working the drive through, this guy keeps smiling at me lol. I'm always smiling, so I didn't think much of it, but dude, noone usually smiles back! Then at lunch a group of friends came in and ordered lunch, they were all laughing. (Background- I live in an area where Spanish is the dominant language, and when the customer needs help with English, they usually become giddy cuz I dunno... so didn't think anything of it) Well time goes on, and after they get their lunch, a guy named Marco (at Jack we ask their first name so we can call their name instead of their numbers when the food is up ) comes up and asks my name. Then he let me know his friend wanted to know my name and ask for my number. The whole time, the group is back at the table laughing and yelling no. Now, I'm used to this pre-op, sadly, it happened alot, and it wasn't ever a good thing lol. I tell him I have to get back to work (there were like 10 orders on the screen lol) and then get the food out and make my way to the dining room to clean up. The whole time I was in there, I kept hearing my name and then alot of Spanish chatter lol. They left about 15 minutes later. While they were in the restraunt, my heart just raced! It was like, spitting out the adreneline, I guess... weird! But I just can't shake the feeling of pre-op... they're just being mean. I mean, the guy was cute!! I don't know if he knew English, but I have to take a Spanish class next semester lol! How do I shake my doubt, I would love to feel more self confident in the guy area, lol.... but I guess I'm scared to death- AND a bit jealous of everyone else lol. I mean, jeeze in the gym, Dawn!? LOL, just kidding!!!!! Thanks for listening to me!!!

I know than a life long history of people being mean about our size is hard to forget and to overcome, but honey, you are a really cute young woman and there is no reason that some good looking young man wouldn't want your name and number for real. Get use to it, it is only going to start happening more and more and then maybe you will find the self-confidence to believe. But you have to learn caution as well. Enjoy the attention, you have earned it and deserve every bit of it. Hazel

Aww, thanks Hazel! I know I have to let go and just go with the flow, but I'm kinda scared. I'm used to knowing what is going to happen, having a plan everything. Its just weird for me I guess, letting go And the past sure haunts! Ack, it does!

Why do you have to drag my name into your charade?? AND...why didn't you tell me about all this when we were talking earlier?? You're such a stinker!! On a SUPER positive note...you're single...so take advantage of this new attention...have fun with it. Get rid of those inhibitions, realize you look on the outside like the person you felt like on the inside...then run with it. Nothing is more sexy than a person that stands proud and KNOWS they got it going on!! Now flaunt it girl...unbutton a button on your uniform shirt...put on a little makeup, make your hair cute, and strut!!! Dawn

Look Miss Thang just because you're flaunting everything doesn't mean I'm there... yet. I don't know HOW to lose the inhibitions! I don't know anything ! Geeze, I sound like a loser lol! Oh and FYI- I make my hair cute everyday I also do my make up.

Look at that awesome new picture!! You just radiate happiness with yourself and that is going to attract men, no doubt. I agree with Dawn that its time to start doing all those little extra things as you are comfortable doing them. The inibitions will go in due time as you meet the right people. Right away you are off to a strong start knowing you want to try new things. You may want to think about what you are looking for in a partner and make a list. That will help you be more focused and as you meet people you can reflect on what you wrote and that person....add and subtract things based on your upcoming experiences. Now you are the prize so no compromising!! IMHO, its better to be single than tied to a loser man so be picky before you commit - having said that, try it all out and see what happens. I'm getting back in the swing of things so know I am always here to commisserate or talk with. You have a partner in crime.... ~Tiffany Tiffany

Hi Jaci!!! I am happy that you are feeling better and better with your new skinny you. I think (and not necearily I am right) that time heals all the wounds. Mr. Right will come and no extra effort would be needed. That is my experience.... I love you Girl...you really have a big hart... Alejandro from Guadalajara Mexico

Jaci I know that feeling from the pre-op days. I hate it and it is hard to shake. But seriously you are adorable and there is every reason in the world for the boys to come calling lol! Dawn is right about the confidence, there is nothing more attractive than a woman who knows she is hot! And you are hot! Try to just take it in and revel in those adrenaline rushes. Those moments are the best parts of life!

Awww, Wendi, thanks! I have to keep telling myself that lol. Ugh I should make me a Daily Mantra! lol!!!!