Question to Ponder???

Hey Lisa, I just wanted to say you look fantastic!!! You have a cute curvy figure that you should feel proud to show off! Dana

Thanks Dana. Like I said, I wasn't fishing for compliments (but I will accept it gracefully!), just curious if anyone else had similar feelings. I just keep thinking, will I look back at pictures of myself right now and say, "girl, what were you thinking wearing that bikini in Vegas??!!" Do I just think I look good now in comparison to what I used to look like, but still have a ways to go?? I guess I'll only know when I get to goal and look back at photos of me now. My DH is of course no help to me in this matter. He's always been complimentary of me, no matter what weight, so I don't think he really sees me how I am. When I was trying bikinis for the Vegas trip I had to really stress to him to try to look at me with the objective eyes of a stranger and not his own "beer goggles!!" Anyway, thanks again for the compliment. I actually need to update those pictures, but I can't get the card reader on my computer to work! Lisa S. 227/158/140 5'6.5"

I have to agree with Ronna on this one... although I have lost over 60 pounds since last summer, I don't see a loss. I have had to buy new clothes, and tighten the band on my watch, but all I can see is this belly that is still in from of me and the ass that is still behind me. I have begun to worry that I will always look fat through my own eyes, that it will not matter what the scale says, or what the measurements are... my mind will tell my eyes that I am fat. Before surgery though, I also had a distorted body image. I would see other people and think, "Oh, I'm not that big." And Oh Yes I Was!!! I didn't see the reality of my situation. I have pulled out some old photos and have been studying them. I can see that the person in those pictures is not the same person I see in the mirror every morning, but it doesn't change what my head is telling me on the inside. I am praying that it gets better with time.

Lisa, I too feel the same way. Sometimes I catch myself dressed in something and think "what the....." and/or think I look good then have a picture taken and zoom in on all my flaws. I suppose we will always feel that. Because as our former selves what did we do but put ourselves down and focus on the worst? That's what I did at least. But today I saw a picture of me with my sister-it is on my profile-she has always been and will be 115 pound. And beautiful. We have different dads so that explains it. But I never thought I was as pretty as her or looked okay next to her. But I saw that picture at the festival and thought I look pretty damn good and even being next to her. It's not a full body shot but I look happy and healthy. Keep looking at the pictures and you will see it eventually. I know I won't feel this way everyday but today I look good! Wendi

I do sometimes, but I don't feel 140. If someone takes my picture I am amazed. I am ready for plastic surgery!! I want my boobs and butt back...good lord. I know I look good when my husbands best friend compliments me more than he does and he gets quite. Then he just keeps his arm around me like he is guarding me. As for me to know I look good....fat people give me dirty looks. I just smile and say...I've been there and it's ok. D

HI Lisa, First off you look great. I have a few questions for you. Did you have this surgery to look good? OR Did you have this surgery to be healthy? Did you have this surgery for the world? OR Did you have this surgery for YOU? How do you feel? Can you walk up steps? Can you run, jump, play? Are you off of meds? Is your cholesterol down? I currently weigh what you weighed on the day of surgery. I started at 306. I feel and look great compared to 306. I am 5' 5.5" I think instead of comparing yourself to the world you should look at the old you and the new you and use that as your point of reference as you mentioned in your post. God Bless, Jen