Where have I been???

Hi Ya'll, We have had lots of changes in our family over the past week. Nathanial's big sister came to live with us last week. She is a sweet precious 2 1/2 year old, she talks well and is potty trained - yeah! My Joy is gone, literally, baby Joy went to live with her grandma on Friday. My heart is broken. I did not know I had the ability to love that much in just 6 short weeks. I am trying to be happy for her, she is with her natural family. I cannot get over the selfishness I feel in wanting her to have stayed here, with me, the only mom she knows. Booo hooo hooo hooo. I have been self medicating with food. Bad habits die hard. I need to replace them with new ones. Maybe I'll start smoking again - yuk - I know gross. Why have this surgery to be healthy and then do something stupid like start smoking again. We are leaving for vacation in 3 days. I will not be on the board much in the next few days while I get packed and firm up all of our last minute details. Then I will be gone for almost 2 weeks. God Bless, Jen

My best wishes for you Jen!!! You have a heart made of pure Gold!!! Alex

Hi Jen. I'm so sorry about Joy... I'll keep you and her along with your families in my thoughts. Don't start smoking, Jen. Everything will work out, I know it will. Please try and have some fun on your vacation, you deserve it!

Jaci, I am not going to start smoking. I just think about it. I used to smoke and when I am around it now, it really grosses me out. It is sooo stinky. My hubby smokes sometimes when he is at work. He thinks I don't know. Of course I know I smell his stinky yucky stench when he walks in the door. Plus my step mom has the lung cancer and tow people I know passed away since Christmas of it. That is enough incentive right there. God Bless, Jen

Thank goodness. I know it was a frantic plea lol..... but you're doing fantastic!!!!

Enjoy your vacation and stay safe. And most of all take the time to take good care of YOU! Sending many hugs, Ronna

Jen, You are truly a blessed person and have a wonderful heart. Enjoy your vacation & talk to you when you return. Carly

Enjoy your vacation...it is well deserved...be sure to take TONS of pics for us to see when you get back!! Dawn

I hope you have the strenghth to avoid smoking. I'll pray for you. Deb

Hey Jen, Have a wonderful vacation. You deserve it! Congratulations on getting Nathaniel's sister into your home. I am sure you are really missing little Joy. Hang in there and don't start smoking!!!!!! Karen S.