So... Yeah
Hi everyone 
I just wanted to let you know I'm not going to be around as much. I am still gonna plan on keeping up with the posts and will post the Wiggle Post... but I have to get out.
I am tired of sitting here at the computer all day waiting for someone to post something to myspace or oh or emails. I need some friends that actually want to hang out and have a good time. Ysterday, I sent out like 25 messages, and I think I got a whopping 5 replies. Yeah... I am tired of friends who make plans with me and then either don't show up, are late, or don't put their heart and soul into what we're doing- whether it be homework or working with the lamb that will be sold in 2 weeks!
I am tired of crushing on someone who just may not even know I am alive in a relationship kind of way. I've come to a conclusion on that one... long story 
So... I think I'm going to go to the mall more often- not to shop, not to work, to people watch. To study how friends are friends and what not... I've been outta the look WAY too long and have this horrible sense of longing to be normal. I want to go out to the bars, to dance and shake my thang, but am scared to death! I don't know what to do, I definately don't know how to "shake it". I'm gonna reach out more during my class at MJC, maybe I'll go join a club or something... gotta wait till the fall semester for that one.
I'm just tired of being alone. I was some physical contact with people and I don't have any.... is that being selfish to ask for? Yeah, I work with people all day long. I see thousands of people a week! But they don't know me! They come in, order a big cheeseburger and leave me. Hey, that's pretty much been my entire life So I am determined to make a change. I need friends my age. Did you know like the only real contacts/acquaintances I have are adults, parents and the elderly!? What gives!? Where did I get stuck and everyone else go on without me?
Aye Carumba, the wild thoughts of my brain at 3:45 in the morning. But I just wanted to tell you all what was up...... so, I'll see you sometime.
Jaci
I just wanted to let you know I'm not going to be around as much. I am still gonna plan on keeping up with the posts and will post the Wiggle Post... but I have to get out.
I am tired of sitting here at the computer all day waiting for someone to post something to myspace or oh or emails. I need some friends that actually want to hang out and have a good time. Ysterday, I sent out like 25 messages, and I think I got a whopping 5 replies. Yeah... I am tired of friends who make plans with me and then either don't show up, are late, or don't put their heart and soul into what we're doing- whether it be homework or working with the lamb that will be sold in 2 weeks!
I am tired of crushing on someone who just may not even know I am alive in a relationship kind of way. I've come to a conclusion on that one... long story
So... I think I'm going to go to the mall more often- not to shop, not to work, to people watch. To study how friends are friends and what not... I've been outta the look WAY too long and have this horrible sense of longing to be normal. I want to go out to the bars, to dance and shake my thang, but am scared to death! I don't know what to do, I definately don't know how to "shake it". I'm gonna reach out more during my class at MJC, maybe I'll go join a club or something... gotta wait till the fall semester for that one.
I'm just tired of being alone. I was some physical contact with people and I don't have any.... is that being selfish to ask for? Yeah, I work with people all day long. I see thousands of people a week! But they don't know me! They come in, order a big cheeseburger and leave me. Hey, that's pretty much been my entire life So I am determined to make a change. I need friends my age. Did you know like the only real contacts/acquaintances I have are adults, parents and the elderly!? What gives!? Where did I get stuck and everyone else go on without me?
Aye Carumba, the wild thoughts of my brain at 3:45 in the morning. But I just wanted to tell you all what was up...... so, I'll see you sometime.
Jaci 
Sweetie~
Your saying all of this with such a depressing demeanor. You should be thrilled that you have reached a level in your self confidence that you can say that you are ready to step out of your box of security and venture out and see what's out there. Sure it can be scary or intimidating but once you get your foot wet the rest of you will soon follow along. You have, in less than 6 mons, transformed into a beautiful person on the outside as well as the inside. I think that you would be granting this world a favor by getting out there and enjoying your life some.
Speaking for myself I know what it feels like to have sat in a room secluded from society and "dream" of the things I "want" to do but would never do because of the fear that people I don't know and would probably never see again would make fun of me. Well, we are too young to live the rest of our lives in seclusion because of the opinions of others. Girl, I wish I lived closer to you...we could hang out and be crazy together...It would be a blast.
Just know that we care about you here and don't think you are some looser that has nothing better to do with her time than sit in front of a computer. We respect you, admire you, and most importantly love you.
Dawn
Jaci, Dawn took the words right outta my mouth! You have come a long way and we can all relate on some level, but this is a good thing! Actually wanting to get out and show the world what they are missing is such an accomplishment for you, so grab it and enjoy the 
! Starting with work and class is a good way for you, I am noticing myself that people are starting to initiate conversations with me more and more in school and I think it is more because I hold my head up now than because of my weight loss. And as far as the boys, you are going to have your heart broken more times then you think, but that has NOTHING to do with who you are, it is just simply life. I have been with my husband for 6 years and even he has broken my heart a few times! But don't ever let that discourage you, there is plenty of fish so to speak, and any one of them would be blessed to have you. Enjoy your new life and freedom and you will have more friends than you know what to do with!
Don't worry about not being on the boards as much, we all still love ya and know you love us too!
Karyn
! Starting with work and class is a good way for you, I am noticing myself that people are starting to initiate conversations with me more and more in school and I think it is more because I hold my head up now than because of my weight loss. And as far as the boys, you are going to have your heart broken more times then you think, but that has NOTHING to do with who you are, it is just simply life. I have been with my husband for 6 years and even he has broken my heart a few times! But don't ever let that discourage you, there is plenty of fish so to speak, and any one of them would be blessed to have you. Enjoy your new life and freedom and you will have more friends than you know what to do with! Don't worry about not being on the boards as much, we all still love ya and know you love us too!
Karyn 
Jaci,
Hon believe me..we all feel your pain. I think we all have done the same thing you have. We put our lives on hold when we gained the weight and now we are trying to re-claim them. And its not easy. Many days I am overwhelmed by it all. All the things I have missed out on and all my friends have lead a life and I have just been sitting in the house. I want my life back but Im still too scared to reach out and grab it. I think having WLS was our first step back into the real world. Now comes the truely hard part, living it. I wish you all the best and know like Dawn said, we love you and hope you find whatever it is you are looking for.
hugs,
kristi
Jaci, ditto, ditto, ditto, ditto, etc. I, too, wish we all lived closer together so we could all be "hang out" friends instead of cyberfriends. You have made a huge step in realizing what it is you need to do and saying, out loud, that you need to step out of the box. You go girl! There's no stopping you. You have a tremendous spirit and heart. That's we are all drawn to and that's what others, out in the "real" world, will be drawn to, too. So get out there and "shake that thang" any way you want because you're JACI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hugs,
Lisa S.
227/155/140
5'6.5"
Wow, Im not sure what to say but If I were there I would hug you. Iv'e been where you are. My pastor says the only difference between a breakdown and a breakthrough is how you handle it. Feel free to e-mail me anytime, I'll be happy to give my number as well.
And please dont feel bad if I cant reply to everything, between my 4 year old, 7 year old and 34 year old my hands are full, lol. But it does make me smile to see your posts.
Elsa
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