I am to the breaking point

I need to vent too guess it is the moon... I saw my councelor afte 6 months and boy do i have issues... good talk but vibes all around in my life. My sister (whom is 1 1/2 yr younger always smaller, now doesn't talk to us much A: I am skinnier than her, and B: she has her son back so no time for us") any way is talking to her son to talk my son into moving to Amarillo to start over. Which is ok by me except for the fact that she threw in the remark that "wouldn't it just erk my sister not to be so close to her grandkids, and for me to have more time with them than her". WTF...now I cannot even think about her with out my emotions going into overdrive and I have no tears to cry cause I them all out last week finishing up the runs.!! To top off my 62 year old father has been evicted from his housing cause they are inforcing NO ALCOHOL rules he has disobeyed for 2 years. My dad is a chronic alcoholic for 50 years. So he wants to come stay with us....suddenly my husband has issues and would prefer that my dad stop smoking and drinking if he come here. again WTF...all he wants is to live happy and die without rules. Is that to much to ask? If I have not mentioned before my husband has ED. High blood pressure and cholestrol meds and stress factors to blame I am sure. sex life not that great but was o****il surgery. He actually made a remark last night, I forget how the subject got there but he said and I quote...***fat women make better lovers***... I am sitting there arms folded and face like OH REALLY! He turns and says I don't mean you honey. I just want to go be bad for a day...ya know. I have waited for 27 years and listens to ex husbands and boyfriends ***** about my weight and whatever and now I am thinner and healthier my devoted husband can't do it cause I am too skinny. Damned if ya do and damned if ya don't. I really give up. All my support just went out the window. I really feel like running away. thanks for the ears... Deborah

Hi Deborah... {hugs} What a postful! Come here whenever you ned to chick. We',ll be here to support you, you're doing great.... stay stong

Jaci you are so funny you always make me smile. thanks

It's got to get better Deborah. It does sound like your going through a rough patch. Hang in there and vent all you need on this board. We're here for you. Karla 337/236/150

thanks I know coming here helps all the time. You guys are great!!!!

Life can sure throw some unexpected punches, but Deb, you're going to make it through in good shape. Know that we are here for you, so don't be afraid to vent anytime you need to. Everyone needs a place where they can say and discuss whatever is on their mind. Hazel

Thanks bunches.....

Deborah, I am so sorry you have to go through all of this, and it always seems to hit all at once too. You came to the right place because i am sure most of us can relate to some of what you are dealing with. I can't offer any advice, but I will pray that things get better for YOU and whatever happens to the rest of them so be it, you have to make yourself number one. Hang in there hon, things have to get better. Karyn

seems is all me and my husband do. about everyone else and everything else. I made some points today.. but we will see if it sunk in. thanks

Goodness woman!!! No wonder you are at a breaking point. I thought I had it bad with 2 kids in my hair 24 hours a day. Listen, I know Jan seems far away BUT what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas!! You are more than welcome to hang out with me, Kristi D, and Tiff when we paint the town red...LOL Dawn