Tears of what?

I have put off the job of going through my "fat Lady" clothes long enough. I am starting with that job tonight. I really am not crying, but I do have some very strong and strange emotions. It is hard for me to pack and give them away. Always before I would gain the weight back and need them again. I look at them and remember the life I had while I was wearing them. The memories attached to them. Good and Bad. I also look at them and realized that I never really saw myself "that" big. But I also look at the clothes that I am wearing now and think, "who am I kidding, I'll never get into that" But I do. And some of the ones that I got just a couple of weeks ago I look at and think "oh, I can still wear that" only to put it on and have it fall off, or look so baggy that there is no way I would ever go out in public in it. The dress I wore to Sandy's wedding, I just packed into and box for her. She loved that dress and I just couldn't take it to the Thrift Shop. One of these days, I am going to have to decide what to do with my Betty Boop fleece Hoodie that I bought myself for Christmas last year. I really don't want to get rid of it, but I know that the majority of us on this board could now fit into it at the same time. Well, enough of my emotional rambling and back to packing. Say a little prayer for me and my task. Hazel

I feel ya sister!!! I have yet to start going through my fat clothes as well. I still try to waer a lot of mine thinking that they are gonna fit and then they fall off!! It makes me feel good when it happens but I cant bring myself to get rid of them yet. I am going to try and tackle this over the weekend when I finally have some time to enjoy a day off!! Good luck Hazel, I know how you are feeling! Steph

Oh Hazel I hear you. But ultimately it will be a good and cleansing activity for you. I know I'm not done yet either. I've given away all my Summer stuff but I have Fall/Winter clothes and gobs of them. Some are even still in the original packaging, I just never got around to wearing them. I also have a wonderful leather jacket that my family bought me fior my 50th. It will be hard to part with but heck it's a 4X and I'm only a 1X now and by fall who knows I feel both your happiness and some of the pain. Sending hugs, Ronna

I did the cleansing awhile ago. I have nothing in my closet but jackets, that are too big, but they are tour jackets and I can't part with them. I am looking at getting rid of some of the new stuff I got now. The shirts are xl and I just bought and wore a med. The pants will last a little longer, I got a scarf to wear as a belt. I have to buy new clothes every couple of weeks. Because I am out on the road, I have to have enough clothes to wear between getting things washed. I do buy clothes I will shrink into, pants mostly, but I have missed the time to wear some, they were big when I put them on. But it is a great thing to have to do

Hazel----it's very affirming to toss those clothes made by 'Omar the Tentmaker'! Good bye to that 'big woman' who had to buy whatever fit and "hello, gorgeous" to the woman who buys what she loves---! I think it's very exciting---you'll never have to wear those clothes again--imagine! Your accomplishments are so inspiring, Hazel---almost as inspiring as Hamburger Night and home made strawberry rhubarb pie Cathy

Hi Hazel, I understand. I found donating my fat lady clothes reaffirming and tangible proof I am losing weight. I did save my favorite jeans - and continue to donate as clothes become too big. My wardrobe is sparse at best, but I am happy to really be able to say "I have nothing to wear" Our emotional side of weightloss is attached to those clothes and how we felt wearing them. Complex stuff. Hang in there- we are growing in differnet ways now. cj

Hi Hazel, I think that this is one of the most emotional and rewarding parts of our journey. Likewise, I have hundreds of pieces of clothing that I've carried around over the years. Each week I've gone thru and tried on new things (from the racks in my basement) so I would not go shopping. I found it rewarding to wear things from yesteryear - and try on items I considered the 'skinny holy grail' only to find that they were too big. I laughed that I was intimidated to try it on and thus completely missed the opportunity to wear the item. One dress I have carried around for 10 years, its so pretty. Well, it fits now but has shoulder pads so thick that I could easily go play football. :LMAO: So right now most of my stuff is ready to 'go' and I am having trouble doing that. (If anyone needs 2x, 1x or 18/20 and some 16's, let me know!!). I want the clothes to go to good use but hesistate to just pack them up. A girlfriend is threatening to come over and haul them all away and wont let me wear baggy stuff anymore. Most days I love her but some days I get upset....although I know she is correct. Soon I'll be done with everything I own...OK, not those clothes in the plastic boxes that I've hauled around for 15+ years. I'll miss the window of oppty on those as they are mostly summer and I'll be that size around September. Oh well. Its painful yet glorious. Emotional all around. Thanks for this post and sharing...... Tiffany

Hey Hazel!!!!! I had the same outpouring of emotions Tuesday. I have already boxed up like 6 things fro Melisa, but never got emotional over it.... yeah she was getting my clothes! Tuesday, I box up the rest of my big clothes (12 boxes worth) an take it down to Good Will... as I'm backing out my "wonderful" boyfriend opens his mouth and says there goes your old life... I have no idea why, but I start bawling! LOL Not the pretty crying, the ugly bawling lol. I guess it didn't scare him too much, but whoa lol. I don't know why I got so emotional over clothes, but it was so freaky. I'm dreading having to go through the mounds of 22-26s that lie on the floor in my room....