I am so mad at myself!!!

I am so mad at myself for allowing myself to getting up to 365 pounds. And for being an emotional eater that lead to me being that big instead of dealing with my problems head on. I am so mad that I let something control my life for so many years instead of me controling it! I am so mad that now that I have lost all this weight that my body is saggy and my skin hangs and instead of my hand waving goodbye to someone my arms do too! I am so mad that I am going to have to pay thousands of dolllars just to take off the years off neglect of my body only to have to go through the pain and have permanent scares. I am so mad that 6 years ago when my family Doctor told me just lose the weight..I did not punch him in the face and tell him I need the surgery now! Iam Just so Happy that my Sister Tina Ramirez found our Doctor that said yes he would do the surgey on two sisters on the same day! I am so Happy that I feel better about myself and that others around me are just as proud of my succsess as I am. I am so happy that I made this choice to save my life as most family members do not live past 60 due to Die-Beat-Tease U Die it Beats U down then it Teases U with all that you can not have to eat. Most of my family has it due to Obesity! If you have felt this way please leave me some of your I am so MAD!!!

Michelle, this is so true. I'm mad that I never realized how big I was, and I never really focused on my health problems and took them seriously. On the other hand, I'm young and I'm proud of myself for making this decision at the time that I did. Even though I have bat wings, slapping thighs, and a pudgy belly this is the best decision I've made. April

Michelle, I remember saying those words to myself the first few days after my surgery. I was so mad at myself for getting so large. I hated the fact that I had to use a cpap machine & that I couldn't walk from the parking lot into my office. I hated that I had to go through wls in the first place. I'm getting to the same point again. Like you said--we have droopy skin that looks bad. I'm going to need a facelift as well. I'm 52 years old & the elasticity in my skin is shot. But........on the other hand, I'm sooooo glad that I did have the surgery. I feel 32 instead of 52 now. Actually I was feeling 72 just prior to my surgery. This surgery is the best decision that I have ever made. I'm starting a new job on Sept. 5 and I plan on saving most of my paycheck toward plastic surgery. Kathy

I understand what you're saying. I feel the same way now. I am almost to the weight I was (211) that I weighed when I lost 50 or so pounds with Weigh****chers 9 1/2 years ago. I could kick myself. But I'm going to keep on, and pay what I have to to have the PS done. I'm almost 47, and don't have as much skin elasticity as I used to. I told my sister and niece I'll have the skinniest arms in the family after PS. Karla