Hi all thoughts of my life last year this time

Sept.16th 2006 One year ago I was hoping for a miracale to happen in my life to help me lose weight I think back to this time of year as I am cooking from here untill the new year with many birthdays and holidays coming I think am I going to be ok again this Christmas with my eating last year my sister and I made lots of goodies that where good for you low in fat to help with our pre-op weight loss we made pass our goal even though all the holidays!! I am at 203.5 and I am getting closer and closer to my goal what happens then? I am afaid sometimes that once I hit that goal that I will still think of my self as an obese person I am obese untill I hit 191 pounds for my height and it just seems so unfair to myself to have that number in my head 191..191..191...191 it is not far but maybe I can drill it into my head that I am 365 anymore even though this girl called me a fat ***** the other day for no reason well not driving fast enough when do I stop being the FAT ***** and just ***** LOL J/K but really this word fat it might as well be a 4 letter word not 3 (FATT-Forever Admiring The Thin) why when we should not covet those around us and be happy in our own shell I am sorry all I have been on a self tortue day and this is my release I am happy about my weight loss it is my daughters 14th Birthday tomorrow and I have to cook and make this day speical for her...Her and I are 30 pounds from the same weight and she has been a little scared that I will be the same weight as her or less we already fit the same size blouses and I can almost fit in her pants so I want to make this day for her that much more special as all of us women know that we have all been on a DIET since or before her age I know I was and I was not even her weight at her age. Well this Fatt ***** has got to go and start my protien and vitamins Kisses for now Michelle

You've really done well with your weight loss, and you'll be just fine. Look at the holidays knowing you won't put any weight on. You can eat the same amount of food at each meal, and you don't have to "stuff" it in anymore. You may eat a few higher calorie foods, but you can limit yourself. I'm really glad myself that fried and high calorie foods make me sick, because I know better than to eat them, maybe a few bites of sweets on special occasions and a little more carbs. You'll be at goal before you know it. Karla 337/211/150

Michells, I have a 14 year old and a 15 year old daughter and they are both so sensative that I will be there size soon, they freak out when I try on there clothes and are sort of in denial. Do you think they think if I am there size then they are fat ? Don't get me wrong they are very supportive and say I look great all of the time just weird about the size thing. You have done a great job, don't beat yourself up about it I think lots of people just add in fat just like in (big fat liar) I don't think it relates to size all of the time.. HAVE A GREAT EVENING TORI