Surgery, tomorrow!
Okay so my surgery is tomorrow. I can't bring myself to leave a video tape or letter for my kids. I don't know why, maybe I am in a little denial. I am packed. I just need before and after pictures and to take my measurements.
I lost 6 lbs this week! Wow! 5 before the liquid diet!!
Nervous but also excited. My husband will update you tomorrow.
::hugs::
Cyndi

Cyndi,
I had a problem with writing a letter for my daughter as well. I ended up deciding against it after discussing it with my husband. I decided to go in with a positive mind and not dwell on the what ifs. It's a completely personal decision but don't feel guilty if you decide not to.
Good luck tomorrow, you will be in our thoughts and I look forward to seeing you on the losing side!
Hugs,
Beth
Cyndi:
I know what you mean about the tape/letter. I have thought since I first start this WLS journey that would be something I did, letters to all I love and letters to my children for various events in their life. A letter for their graduation day, a letter for their wedding day, a letter for the birth of their first child, etc. The list is long. Part of me says that I should do it. The other part of me says "I'm going to be just fine so why do that? I'm going to be there for graduation, marriage and grandchildren." Part of me feels that to do that, for me personally, it's negative energy; getting myself all worked up because I will cry, cry, cry writing them. But there are alot of people who do this for their families, just in case.
Death is NOT an option for me. It just isn't. Today is a good day as far as positive feelings goes. Who knows...I'm so wishy-washy, tomorrow might be different.
Really though, overall, I'm going to be fine. God is going to guide the surgeon's hands, I'm going to hear "Kim, wake up, we're finished." And a new life will begin for me and the family.
Keep your chin up...it is difficult not matter which way you go.
Best, best wishes to you for an uneventful surgery and a very speedy recovery. Let us know how it goes.
~Kim