Temptation Bowl Sunday!

February 5, 2006 Welcome to my little piece of ... well you know. Yesterday, I got sooo many compliments at church I was feeling wonderful!!! I was having a great time. So many people LOVE my new hairdo!!! I do too, the scale was on my side and my measurements too. So how do you go from such a high to such a low point? I took the kids to the ship to watch the superbowl and eat horrible snacks together. I came home to watch the commercials where I wouldn't be tempted. I was doing really well, until I got hungry. I tried a South Beach frozen entree and two ounces into it I couldn't stand it, it was horrible. So then I tried these garlic mashed potatoes, they were worse. So I'm not finding anything to eat, so I decide I have to get my protein in, so I have a power crunch bar (good choice) but that was more like lunch and afternoon snack, come dinner, starving again. Nothing is tasting good, so I have 3 SF checkerboard cookies (not too bad) but still need real food. My husband comes home with the kids and I scarf down an oreo they brought home. It didn't necessarily taste good, I just wanted it. What is up with that. Was it the convience of it? Was it head hungry, was it actual hunger? Why after doing so much to stay away from temptation did I eat cookies? SF and not! Why can't I find something to eat that tastes good. Why did I go down hill so fast. I really am not even sure myself, I am trying to figure it out. I forgave myself for the cookie, but I need to know why, so I know how to take care of it, if it happens again.

Hi Cyndi, Man, I feel your pain!! I get that feeling in the PM- (always was a nite time eater). I think it's a combination of all of the above you mentioned- We are re-training ourselves and are NOT perfect - this will take time to not only modify our stomachs and heads. these foods represent those "comfort" and "fast" foods we grew so accustomed to eating. And lets face it, they are good! Also our long term goal is to learn to deal with these foods. 1 oreo never made anyone obese- so having one is NORMAL!!! You are fine!! maybe just feeling a little deprived. I know I am getting a little tired of yogurt, soup, and cottage cheese on the pureed diet. So, the point of all this is: You made a controlled choice. Now, go get some protein and big glass of water after that! cj

LOL!! Thanks CJ

I feel your pain, too. I now realize how many little bites I took before a meal. I've since learned that those little bites now ARE my meal. I nibbled and then could not even think of eating what I planned. With that, I find myself thinking hard about what I will eat for my meal since I only have so few bites and I want it to be really tasty and satisfying. The hot bar at Whole Foods has helped me as I can get nutritious warm food and have a meal; cooking most anything at home just creates more than I could think of eating. I think some of this comes down to habit - we've acted this way for years and its normal to see an oreo and want to eat it. Sometimes I ask myself: 'is this worth wearing?' My answer is now 'no' - I want to wear those normal size jeans instead.

Cyndi, I know what your going through. I constantly tell people who ask me about hunger this: This surgery changed my stomach, not my mind. What used to look good, taste good, and smell good still does. We had a superbowl party at our home as a church function since our basement is a football theme. Of course, being the hostess that I am I went on a cooking frenzy. This was my first time cooking post-op and it was hard. I did good baking the cake. When I made pepperoni cheese bread, I only ate 1/2 a slice of pepperoni, and I didn't touch anything else. But once the party got underway, I was having serious head hunger. At one point I went in the fridge and ate a single m&m. As soon as it began to melt in my mouth I thought, "why did you just do that?" It's funny, it didn't taste as good as I was hoping. Either way I ate it. What was worse was that I felt fine. Maybe because it was such a small amount, but I was hoping to get sick to teach myself a lesson about head hunger. It sure is nice to know that I'm not the only one going crazy with food choices at the wrong times. Dawn